dang i feel so stupid.. i changed my weekend duty which is on the 10th of march to the 24th of march.. wat the hell la.. although it's still saturday, but saturdays r rather important to me n i jus delayed the inevitable.. i rather do it n get it over wif.. zzzzzz.. also got another reason la but i wun say out =)
maybe some nice guy would wan to change duty wif me on the 24?? lolz..
whew quite tired after reaching home from camp.. the activities are really getting to me.. even though i stayed in camp the nite before, had plenty of slp, i still feel shag.. like, i got no will power to actually move ard.. instead sitting there n jus rotting.. maybe too long under the sun cos my archery station got no shelter..
actually, now that i think abt it.. actually maybe, oni MAYBE, taking duty on the 24th is not so bad.. 3weeks saya tak perlu jumpa dia, mungkin lagi senang untuk lepaskan dia dari hati.. but will suffer la sia..
i'm actually starting to look forward to ORD.. even though i still duno what's my next step in life.. i'm jus tired of NS n NCC.. seriously, maybe i'll jus go wif cat to visit her mom in the US.. stay there for a few mths before coming back.. or maybe fly over to jun's place to take a breather also can..
smth might be wrong wif me.. i've been having this throbbing headache for the past few days.. on n off one.. n no, panadols dun help this time.. been very distracting as i'm unable to keep my concentration in anything at all..
saya ingat amat senang untuk lepaskan sesuatu, but i was wrong
posted @ 7:22 PM
monday blues is hitting me hard at the moment.. i'm feeling damn sick of going to work.. i can't really explain the feeling in me now.. it's jus i wan to take some time off, relax n work out my messy mind..
maybe it is due to the long cny holiday tat i had.. from fri to wed.. oni going back to work for 2 days last week tat is causing this laziness of mine to pop up.. hmm, i should be staying in camp tml as i dun feel like going back home..
fadz, tiff n james came over to my hse today.. abt 11plus, i was darn tired though due to the prev night unable to slp.. i had nightmare abt zombies.. mus be reading too much resident evil books lately.. the funny thing is that it is abt me, steph, fadz and tiff.. well i can't rmb much abt it, oni rmb tat i was darn happy when i found a M16 wif a box of ammo nearby.. n looking at the 2 gals shooting zombies is another thing.. somehow they appear to be so gung ho in the dream whereas in real life... =รพ
anywayz, they came over wif the plans to go swim, but somehow it did not go that way.. fadz ended up slping.. james playing winning eleven on the computer, tiffany bugging james to let her use the com.. tiff ended up playing wif my light sticks.. cutting it up n pouring it all over the place so that everything glows.. i decided to go to dreamland in hopes of finishing of the nightmare.. it didn't happen though lol..
we went to eat at the prata shop nearby before heading over to lot 1 to play pool.. tiff had the urge to play.. well, i didn't really play much due to me wearing glasses but somehow, everyone is like off form today.. maybe cos the table is diff??
anywayz, planning to have a seoul garden eating session on the 17th of march, saturday, if i'm not wrong.. so peeps, save ur money now.. my duty for the month of march is on a saturday but i really hope it wun fall on this date.. maybe i will change to sunday.. see anybody wan to change wif me anot =(
posted @ 1:08 AM
i saw this from my couz blog n i decided to share it with everyone..
taken from jun's blog (dun mind ar)
*start* anyway...when the train stopped at WOODLANDS..a man entered..and well...obviously i wouldn't take notice of him..NOT UNTIL...as he alighted at KRANJI...he walked passed me...and he threw a piece of folded paper at me..i was already like...WHAT THE F!!!!!!why are u throwing paper at me????and everyone was looking lah...DAMN EMBARRASSING seh...and when i looked at the paper...it was then tt i realise...he wrote his name and hp no...and he expected me to call him...*GAWD*these kinda tactics still exists??????????????????pls man....u are a STRANGER!!!!!!!!i dun even noe u...and hu do u think i am??to be throwing ur phone number on a piece of pathetic paper at me??????????MY GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm praying hard i dun bump into him again..as a matter of fact i dun even recognise his face..GOSH!!!!!!!
*end*
when i saw tat, the first person that actually crossed my mind was theo.. lolz.. as far as i noe, he's the most likely candidate for this kinda of stupid thing.. or there are actually ppl out there like him whom i do not know yet.. not that i wan to know them.. i jus feel it's damn funny la.. lamer guy..
ytd.. tootie was being disturb by this person on msn.. apparently he was a dirty fellow so i acted as a horny gal to pull him away from tootie.. dang i didn't save the conversation cos i accidently close the window.. i think maybe tootie has it.. of well at least part of it.. it was quite funny.. ask me n her on when u see us for more details =)
today i accompanied ah huat after work to do some shopping.. he went to get a i pod nano n i was almost tempted into getting one as well.. but after weighing the pros n cons.. i decided not to.. maybe i will get a creative one.. after my current one spoil tat is.. fadz had the same model as mine n it went down after a yr of usage.. mine is almost 1 yr already.. let's see whether it will happen to me anot =) if it does.. creative neon it is..
posted @ 10:50 PM
first of all, let me wish everyone a happy chinese new yr n may ur ang pao's collection be alot..
abit late though but nvm la at least got wish =)
this is kinda a long holiday for me cos i was off from work since friday till wed.. too bad thurs mus go back to work cos got smth to do else i sure take off till next week..
well, even though it's long, it felt kinda short. somehow it jus felt short even though i ton almost every nite since sat. time seems to fly when ur happy, enjoying n slows to a crawl when u r bored like studying, working..
overall, i think it's jus how often u take a look at ur watch =)
nth much going on frankly speaking, my collections also not alot cos i nv go bai nian-ing and also cos my chinese relatives not alot.. lost $15 from gambling but tat's alright.. lost alot more actually luckily won back some..
phones sure dun like me.. i got 3 handphones and all 3 decided to go down on me.. so i'm using a spoilt handphone.. i noe ppl call always like cannot get thru, i'm sorry as this is my phone problem pls bear wif it until i ORD first cos i dun see a point to change phone cos i cannot bring to camp also..
been hanging out wif some ppl i dun usually hang ard wif the past few days.. got to noe quite a few new ppl also.. not bad la can extend my network..
2nd nite was wif Jovin (i very long nv call him jovin liaoz always ter loon, ter loon) that gang.. it's become a once a yr routine for cny to go to terence place to meet up.. i miss those days where we would everyday hang out to tok crap etc.. but they have move on in life, being 25 yrs old this yr.. having settled down wif a car etc.. while i'm still stuck here in ns.. well, i do hope when i'm 25 i can be like them.. a gd example.. a bad example would be, like wen yao?? =x
think i will stop here for now.. some stuffs is bogging up my mind n i need to clear it up first..
i'm sorry, i really wanted to walk down the road wif u.. suddenly i felt the need to take bigger steps, leaving u behind..
posted @ 5:16 PM
hmm.. i jus feel like saying this out..
theophilus chen!! u wan to settle things wif me come n see me face to face.. dun hide behind some wall n keep on bad mouthing me.. i am waiting here!! right in the open for u!! n yet u choose to hide.. u bloody piece of *censored*
sorry abt tat.. i jus had to say tat out after reading his blog.. i wun bother to type wat he said cos it's a waste of my time.. thanks to fadz for highlighting this out to me..
hmm, today was a
BALL day for me.. y?? u'll see..
9am - played
soccer wif the usual gang.. somehow i was rather off form today.. n to put in Football Manager terms.. all my stats drop by 10 pts..
10am - went for a meeting wif commandant.. after all this while in NCC i nv actually attended a meeting wif commandant in it before..
11am - went for MESS activity, which is the buffet lunch, orange and ang pow giving etc.. u get the picture..
1pm - headed to Orchid Country Club to play
bowling.. can say it is a Training Cadre outing.. while waiting for the rest to arrive since we all took different transport over, me n jeremiah went to play
billard..
money can really improve alot of things.. when MAJ Chua offered $50 dollars to the best team in bowling, i reached the ever highest score in my whole entire life for bowling.. which is 165pts.. tat's gd for me cos i normally dun play bowling one.. oni pool.. but i didn't get the highest =(
went to meet the fadz, tiff, darren at cine after bowling.. did the usual stuffs there etc. play truck game, disturbing tiff.. and we went to have dinner.. after dinner, we went to play
pool!!
so to round it up, i played soccer, billard, bowling and pool all in one day.. understand y it's a ball day for me??
but it's ok, i oni spend abt $10 which is gd considering all the stuffs i did today =))
i will be waiting..
posted @ 11:50 PM
been a long time since i updated.. mainly cos i was busy n kinda lazy also..
firstly, fadz has
finally received his ns letter.. going in 13 march.. not so bad la cos he kanna police instead of the usual army.. i think quite shiok compared to army.. he's going in when i'm abt to ORD.. life gonna be abit dull but i'll work smth out wif the rest..
thanks to tiffany, for accompanying me to buy my new yr stuffs on last sunday.. thanks for choosing the clothes etc for me.. too bad some dun have the size i need else would be betta.. i noe a bit slow when choosing clothes so sorry ar..
hmm, been spending quite abit for the past few days due to new yr stuffs, clothes, drinking etc.. this is the 4th day after pay day n i already spend more then 1/2 of my pay.. die la how to survive..
as usual monday n tuesday got camp feast.. thus lots of cadets came n i was very busy.. i did rappelling station this time, learn quite a few stunts this time.. lolz.. was scared like hell though since i went down head first.. i was like, wat if i fall wat if i fall.. tat's it la..
nth much to tok cos all i did this few days was to go thru n fro from camp to home n at home also do spring cleaning oni.. fri got MESS activity so hopefully after the activity will get half day off.. then i can go home rest abit before asking tiffany out to acc to douby ghaut to finish off watever i haven't buy..
ok la i stop here for now.. nth much to tok and also i'm on duty.. by right i'm not supposed to do this kinda thing eg: youtube, blogging.. but by left.. lolz..
posted @ 7:38 PM
hmm today is such a boring day.. nth much going on in camp.. n i'm on duty!!!! wth la.. stay in again.. 3 times this week already..
as usual i went for my morning breakfast after some area cleaning given by RSM.. cos there's some unit advisor thing going on in the afternoon so mus touch up the camp abit.. i went back to office to play my FM.. wanted to slp but decided not to else i would be a pig n grow fat as well.. after lunch time abt 12 CLT's came to report to me cos we r going to demo the flying fox station to the VIP of later's ceremony.. i'm like attached to flying fox always when it come to flying fox it's me.. did a dry run wif them once before slacking on the top of the tower.. somehow i managed to fall asleep when i was up in the tower.. lucky i nv roll till fall off the tower.. else my injuries will be 1000 times worse then wat i have now.. well, me n my guys were up there for like 3 hrs waiting for that stupid idiot to come n watch.. when finally he did, we jus went flying off the tower will bursting party poppers.. lolz.. so lame la as i watched all the colorful flakes flew down.. like snowing like tat.. was hoping that the wind will blow till NYP so that no need to clean up tml lolz.. after that i reported for duty, 2WO Steven wanted to have a drink wif me so i went to the mess to drink a can of TIGER while he took STOUT.. geez i hate stout.. paid for him as i owe him one tea break for losing to him in chinese chess.. lolz..
well, toked wif him awhile before 2WO Dennis jioed him to play billard.. lolz.. still can tell me sure win 2WO Steven one.. well, as far as i noe 2WO Steven is unbeatable here.. lolz.. 5mins ago the score was.. 2WO Steven 4 games, 2WO Dennis 1 game.. lolz..
ok la i go watch them play somemore.. can learn alot of things from 2WO Steven.. Eric called me jus now saying wan to meet this weekend.. i think i will go wif him n maybe skip cine grp if the timings clash..
posted @ 9:01 PM
well i'm finally back home after 2 days of staying in camp.. tml mus stay in again so sianz.. hmm i jus changed the backgrd music of the blog.. this one sounds more.. sadder???
mon
well the first day of camp feast, every week i dread this cos there r so many cadets!! when will they ever stop coming to do adventure activities?? lolz, this time i was doing flying fox station.. for..
236 cadets!! tat's like alot sia.. as usual after the morning briefing i went to eat breakfast [
growing fatter] then i went back to office.. in office i saw halif so i tok to him abt wat's going on in my mind while waiting for the ice breaking activities to start.. come 11am i went to do my station which was "low wall".. a wall which is like 2times higher then me.. n it's called low.. i wonder wat's high then.. i think for my station i oni managed to clear abt 135ppl due to time constrains etc.. lunch was not bad, the same old food i always been eating lolz.. i went back to office to play football manager for 10 mins before heading to set up my flying fox station.. seeing the station reminds me of wat stephee said to me on sat..
"if i go down this station i will sure scream like a crazy gal"
well, ur not the oni one.. many ppl do scream when they go down.. or even worse at the edge already then die die dun wan to move.. forcing me to.. take some actions eg. push them.. i sound so evil suddenly.. i managed to clear abt 130 ppl today.. not bad leaving me abt 90 for tml.. syafiq was helping out at the camp feast so he came up to the tower to do flying fox since i was there.. haha i gave him.. a nice ride.. i twisted his cable until when he moved off, he was spinning like a yoyo in the sky.. lolz.. i rmbed him cursing me when he reach the other end of the line.. tat's for disturbing me earlier on during lunch..
for those looking for him, he can be found working at ps carrefour from wed to sun at the cashier.. either 1st floor or the b2 one cos he will shift here n there..
at night i went to the mess wif kelvin, anthony and halif.. we wanted to drink tiger n when we opened the fridge, we saw cartons of guiness stout but oni 3 tiger.. i was like, oh shit.. we decided to go for the stout even though i kinda sworn off stout.. kevin came halfway.. they r gd buddies la listening to watever i have to say n giving me advice.. lolz.. oh man i nv gonna drink stout cos it taste like shit.. i was put off by the taste tat all of us oni drank 1 can each..
tuesthis is the day.. where we will go down to the cage for our match..
morning i did flying fox again.. i finished off my the last guy abt 11am, i hurried to the store to keep my stuffs before running of to office to take a break.. i kinda tot that resting would make me more energize for the night's match.. well, i slacked till 5.30.. n everybody came dragging me up to the bunk to get changed.. when everybody ready to go.. we were thinking of how to get to kallang from our place.. then we saw the bangla workers on a lorry.. so came the stupid idea..
"uncle ar, where r u headed to?"
"i going to paya lebar tat area"
"paya lebar.. near kallang rite?? can give us a ride??"
and so all of us, abt 13 ppl.. squeezed onto the back of the lorry wif a few bangla workers.. i'm so glad they r not gays or anything.. the ride was uncomfortable but at least it got us to the place.. i was sitting on a ladder.. pain alright.. wif my back aching after we got off.. from there we went on to eat dinner, n finally we went to the place..
damn the place is nice la.. it's like a street soccer court, wif artificial grass n everything.. so everybody eagerly went to changed n after deciding the teams, we headed straight into the match.. for some reason, everybody was playing at full speed.. the tempo of passes, shooting and everything was so fast, by 10mins everyone was winded out.. esp me.. my speed everything is there but not the stamina.. lolz.. well, we lost some, won some.. overall not bad la.. ajay was complaining his team got too many "man's".. his team was, ajay, sulaiman, rahman, azman.. lolz..
lucky i was not in tat team else all would be "man!! ball" then i wouldn't noe which "man" is he toking abt..
i had 2 injuries
strain back: expected to be out for a week
swollen toe: expected to be out for 3 days
after the game we went to makan again!!
[exercise so much then eat wat's the point?]
the uncle was damn stressed when he saw us lolz.. cos we were like..
uncle, not enuff seats la.. i dunno how many ppl coming.. maybe 20 more..
can move this table anot? no one seating here.. can la..
uncle we order first... [5mins later] er.. uncle we still haven't decide u later then come back ok?
the highlight
"uncle ar, got teh anot??"
"of cos got la" [proceed to write teh in his order list]
"uncle i wan milo peng"
haha, tat was damn funny la.. we took taxi back to camp.. reached there ard 12.30am then to our horror, we needed to decorate the theaterette.. wth la.. so late already still mus do work.. so on we went working till 2am.. i was damn tired la tat i swore i could jus slp if i lie down.. then they started to tok abt ghost stories.. then kelvin damn scared to go bath alone.. lolz.. dragged me, anthony n brandon follow him shower.. we wanted to explore this abandoned building but ended up backing out cos we had no torchlight n humji-ness got better of us.. i jus realised amoy quee means female ghost.. wat de.. how come the camp name like tat one.. well, took a nice shower and went to slp while the rest went to watch some drama on the com..
wed
this morning i couldn't get up la, not cos of lack of slp but becos of my back.. i had to ask kelvin to pull me up.. to add on to the misery i was conducting spec for the 3.5km run.. so i had no choice but to go for the run although i noe stephee will kill me for this.. i was damn slow la due to the injuries.. from being the first few normally i dropped to the last.. clocking a time of 15mins.. slow slow.. but it's ok, my injuries were hampering me..
actually when i think abt it, i did nth at all for today.. after the run i went to slp.. until 4pm.. wth la.. lolz..
finally i'm back home after 2days of staying in.. actually i rather not be home as it causes my mind to wander ard.. not gd at all.. tok to stephee for awhile n sorted out some stuffs wif her..
long post eh, it took me 40mins to type out lor..
i did it.. i managed to do it.. or at least i think i did it..hey joker, my buddy, looks like u have an extended job to do.. sorry..
posted @ 7:01 PM
YEAH!! SINGAPORE WON THE MATCH AGAINST THAILAND!!well
anywayz, i
jus came back after going out to town to meet
fadz, tiff and
james.. i didn't wan to go out at first.. but i was dying at home due to boredom and my thoughts..
2 highlights regarding
tiffany that made me felt that she's more stupid then the
tooty herself
1. you
noe at
KFC when u buy a 2 piece chicken meal it will come
wif 1 whip potato n 1
coslaw.. so while eating
KFC, she takes a
coslaw, take a bite n complain tat got no sauce she dun wan to eat.. 5 second later, she takes the
coslaw again, thinking tat it is whip potato and she asked "y is there another
coslaw??"
omg..
tat's like.. it's
oni 5 seconds.. talking
abt stupid..
2. while playing pool at
meridien, i kinda forgot
wat she did actually.. but somehow,
jus SOMEHOW the tip of the cue stick landed on her face.. then there was this mark on her face caused by the chalk.. it's was damn funny la..
james laugh till so loud while she there trying to rub off the chalk off her face..
buey tahan..
I HAD OFFICIATE TIFFANY TO BE THE MOST STUPIDEST GER I'VE KNOWN this was after a long debating whether tooty or tiff is more stupid but i decided wat tiff done is more then enuff to earn that converted award..i
jus realised
smth also.. i actually thrives on pool nine feet table
oni.. on eight or seven i will suck till very bad.. maybe this explains my past few days playing form.. like today, we opened at 8 ft table first, dang i suck at it.. when we change to 9 ft.. i was like back to normal..
i think i might take a few weeks off the cine
grp.. ask
eric to train me in pool again then i will be GOD when i return..
haha..
while at
meridien, i actually saw someone that looks like
theo..
i'm serious.. from the side and back view.. front view, if seen from a distance resembles
theo alot.. i would have presume tat
wat he would have look like if he was more like us.. as in fashion sense and everything.. he's
abit shorter then
theo,
abit more plump-er..
haha.. he really resembles
theo until i feel like
wacking him while waiting for the "prince" to appear before my eyes..
anywayz peeps, i posted a suggestion in the
friendster cine
grp regarding
chinese new yr so do drop by n see whether is it
ok anot.. any feedback or improvement can be made there or my tag board..
haiz tml go back to camp.. will be conducting flying fox again..
i'm going to die.. well,
monday is bad for me n her.. we'll make it though as usual..
hmm, i more or less sorted out my thoughts already.. now is to put it into action
oni.. cos it's damn easy to say but hard to take action.. but at least i feel
alot betta now..
hey joker, u did a gd job today.. pls, continue for the time being..
posted @ 10:55 PM
hmm, i reopened my blog.. this time i customized it with a very dark skin as i was feeling damn messed up as i was doing this.. i could not slp anywayz so i tot i might as well try and reopen my blog.. at least i could use it like a diary the next time i see it..
was reading through my friendster testimonials before i've closed it down.. they all said i'm a nice guy.. but frankly speaking deep in myself i think i'm not.. or izzit more like they dun understand me at all.. i supposed i dun tok much abt myself.. anybody reading this can tell me, anything i tok abt is always abt u, him, her, that person, this person.. nv abt me..
well anywayz, i decided to take a short break from everything.. reaffirm where i'm standing and where should i head to.. i'm making myself go in circles into a path where nth will come out of it.. in a sense i'm making myself suffer for nth.. but it's hard as i did tried.. i really did.. maybe i need more time.. some MIA-ing for awhile.. n i'll should be able to get out..
if i ever choose to MIA, pls dun blame me.. i have my reasons for doing so.. i just don't wan ppl to get affected by it n everything.. i think if that happens oni Fadz knows how to get to me.. =) i would have done more, or tried harder.. once bitten twice shy they said.. well i was bitten thrice already haha.. i can't go through another bout of that..
i won't be updating so often as my daily life is kinda boring.. is more like go to work, back home rest, the next day go to work again.. i'm only looking forward to Saturday every week but now even Saturday seems to be so dull.. the more i think abt it, y m i even putting on a smiling face??
i'm starting to feel tat colyn is some kinda physic.. everytime when i'm down she'll somehow come n msg me asking me how m i doing.. talking abt her also makes me wonder how long i've known her.. almost as long as peiyu n huiting if not longer.. i have to admit that although we rarely contact now, she still listed under my best friends..
thanks to Jingwei aka the "noob" for listening to me for abt 1hr last nite.. i really needed that bro.. u have moved on in life, being a school teacher and everything while i am still stuck here in army.. i used to be the one listening to u giving u all the advice in camp when we always stayed in but now, u r the one giving it to me.. i nv expected it to turn out this way u noe.. cos u were always so negative abt everything n i'm the positive one.. but now i think abt it, maybe i was the more negative person.. as the current situation stands bro, u r now what i m in those days..
i reposted 2 of my previous entries mainly on april 2006 cos that's when i had the fight wif fadz.. i felt that no point for me to hide it anymore.. for those ppl like steph dunno wat's izzit abt.. it's abt a stupid quarrel me n him had over his bdae celebration.. i would say it's my fault but at that point of time, being hot headed and everything, i refused to give in..
i will stop here for now.. i'm darn tired as i couldn't slp last nite.. i'll try to get some slp now..
joker!! where r u i really need u to cover for me i'm dying here..
posted @ 12:20 PM