fuck-
ing shit.. y m i always getting into trouble in camp these few days.. all the way for 1yr plus nth happen n now when i wan to
ord i always get into shits..
wat the fuck.. u, a lieutenant colonel, always finding trouble
wif me.. a mere 3rd sergeant.. i dun understand..
wat the hell u dun like
abt me??
i'm being overly stressed these few days.. it's not as though i
nv do my job.. i always do it 120%.. else y would my
immediate superior like me so much.. n u.. a fuck-ing lieutenant colonel, find problems that other ppl dun even notice..
u can ask anyone u mother f-er.. i admit the first fault u found was totally my fault.. i forgot to inform u when the kid went to hospital for a serious injury.. but this time.. kids report sick also i mus report to u?? cannot be i call u "sir, got 1 kid report sick cos he homesick".. then bloody cb u will fuck-ing fuck me for calling u over this kinda thing.. n now i nv call u, u cb also wan to fuck me..
u urself said, any incident inform the DSO first.. follow dunno wat fuck line of communication.. so when the kids report sick i jus inform DSO how many report sick, their status etc.. it's not like nv do my job.. major one then inform u.. i followed ur orders rite fuck??
it's not like the kid fell down n broke his hand.. u bloody fucker the next time i do duty i'm gonna call u for every single thing i see tat is not right ok??
bloody fuck give me extras till i fucking ord la.. cb i stay in all the way sit the fucking ops room for 24/7 if it's tat wat u wan.. u cb..
i guess, this is it
posted @ 6:59 PM
i'm losing it i think, i actually went back to drinking n smoking.. losing my cool so easily.. the old me tat i tot i would nv see again.. though i dun think i will ever wack somebody ever again.. but then again, tat's hard to say..
now where's joker when i need him??
i guess this is it.. time to close a chapter of my life spanning from Nov 25 2006 to this moment.. reluctantly..
posted @ 4:46 AM
damn sad, i spent my saturday doing duty.. sobz.. haiz well, at least it over n done with now.. nth much have been going on lately.. it's mostly camp camp camp... i'm still wishing for ORD to faster come even though i'm clueless abt my next step in life..
fadz went into camp for his 10days confinement, oni to be out on the 3rd day due to a... mishap.. to think on the day itself when tiffany was talking to me, i said jokingly that fadz would fall down in the toilet.. n he really fall down in the toilet.. who the hell, fall in the toilet while showering.. lolz..
on thurs nite, i stayed in due to fri morning need to start work at 6.45am.. so me n 2IC went to the mess, he was telling me he dunno how to play billard, so i took the initiative to teach him.. n hell, i lost to him the first game we played together.. i somehow keep missing, n he somehow, keep snooking me.. n i potted in 75% of the balls.. beginner's luck ?? i dunno man..
tiffany has improved in pool alot.. tues when i went out wif her, she won me in the first 3 games.. i was like, er... shit?? end of the day i won her 5 - 4.. but still, tat's pretty gd of her considering she jus started pool like 2 mths back.. maybe she's a fast learner but i could see that she understood the concept of how the ball hit n move.. now if oni steph could learn tat fast or play as often as her, then i'll gladly fufill watever i promised her..
84more days to the end of my NS.. i really need some ideas on what to do.. i wanted to go study but financially i cannot so tat's out.. maybe i should start looking at jobs adverts on the net and newspaper..
Woke up in a dream today. Forgot all about yesterday. Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore. A little taste of hypocrisy. Fine line between this and that. When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real. Now I'm trapped in this memory and I'm left in the wake of the mistake. Even though you're so close to me, you're still so distant, and I can't bring you back. It's true, the way I feel. The sound of your voice, painted on my memories. Even if you're not with me, I'm with you
posted @ 9:41 AM
hmm, been spending my time out alot wif my bro fadz cos he's into the next phase of his life tml.. which is serving ns wif the police for the next 2 yrs.. actually when i think he went to police i feel happy for him, cos at least he wun have to go thru all the shit i went thru.. it's jus not worth it..
sat - i went out wif ncc peeps to watch 300 followed by a walk ard the IT fair.. the show is not bad, watch it on a weekday though.. the IT fair is gd, lots of promos i would love to get some of the stuffs there if i had the money lolz.. met up wif fadz n the rest at cine.. went over meridien to play pool n finally at zone x arcade.. wanted to go home when me n fadz pondered over the idea of tonning.. n tat we did.. me, ryan n fadz caught storm the yard at 2am in the morning.. it was not my kind of show so i always struggling to stay awake during the show.. went back home by NR..
sun - the last min planning seoul garden turnout was not too bad.. 8 peeps in total.. me, fadz, tiff, ryan, james, calvin, eric n his gf.. we had a hell of a time in there.. spending almost 2hrs there.. i had sore throat yet i still eat all those fried stuffs, i'm sure asking for trouble.. once again i failed in making ice kachang.. after so many times of eating seoul garden i think i finally realise y i always fail.. lots of funny things happen there.. like.. tiffany scoop ice cream, the ice cream also can fly one.. we went to cine k pool to... play pool.. played for 2hrs i think before heading over the marina square wif the tots of playing arcade till the wee hrs of the day but bloody hell the arcade close at 12.. so we made our way to marina south instead.. lolz.. played until abt 3am before heading home.. long day..
mon - today i woke up feeling pretty shitty so i decided to report sick.. i oni went to the clinic at 2 plus, a mistake.. so many ppl i waited for almost 2 hrs to get everything done., i think i wait till i ok already.. went down cine to meet the rest.. didn't do much cos fadz n tiff went to watch movie while the rest of us decided to save money n give it a miss.. we went to ps to play game till ard 9 plus after i decided to call it a day cos i was too tired n i got work the next day.. sad, y the doc nv give me 2 days mc..
well bro, it's time for u to step into the new phase of ur life.. u can call me if there is anything, although i think ppl like ryan can help u more in terms of police stuffs.. i jus hope that tiffany dun start calling me everyday.. n finally, take care of urself, i'll see ya when u book out..
everyone's moving forward but i'm still looking back
posted @ 10:46 PM
once again, my dear cousin got harressed by someone from woodlands.. makes me wonder wat kinda of ppl is staying at woodlands.. well, here's the article taken from her blog..
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PUBLIC TRANSPORTS ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PUBLIC!!!!!!!so does that mean it gives people the rite to do anything they want??even violating people's PRIVACY?????????FUCK OFF LAH U GAWD DAMN IRRITATING FREAK!!!!!!a few weeks ago it was some guy throwing a fugging paper at me with his number written on it..and TODAY....A FUGGING PSYCHO GUY took pictures of me using his phone..LIKE MY GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!so STUPID SIA...even if u want to take photos..do at least off the camera sounds...IT WAS SOOOOOOOO FUGGING IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!and guess where that man came from???WOODLANDS!!!!!what's up with the woodlands station man??isit like infested with sooo many psycho maniacs????this chinese guy just appeared from seat and sat rite in front of me...and he was like using he's nokia 5300 phone and directing it rite in front if me..at first i tot maybe he was taking pics to try out his new phone..den i realised...he not only took one pic..he started taking again..and again..i got so damn uncomfortable i felt like screaming...den thankfully a woman stood in front of me..and blocked him...and then...when the train was reaching YEW TEE, he began to position his cam at me again..and when two women walked past, he like held his phone back..i'm like HELLO????????its like so GAWD DAMN OBVIOUS CAN?????????????den i quickly stood up and walked to the door...and guess what he did???he actually had the GUTS AND BALLS to move and turn and aim his camera towards me..SO FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MY GOODNESSSS!!!!!i cant believe such ppl exist..and seriously...i'm freaking out...really really freaking out...this is why i hate going anywhere alone..coz i easily get HARRASSED!!!!!!!why cant i have some peace????*GOSH*
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this text has not been edited in anyway to maintain originality n flavour =þ
so peeps, esp those pretty gals, be very careful whenever u pass by woodlands mrt, u might land up to be the next victims of theo-like personnel..
nth really much to update la actually.. today went to work as usual, bla bla bla.. after work went to meridien to play pool wif fadz, tiff, wenyao n edison.. had dinner over there before heading over to heeren dnyk?? [forget the place] to meet up wif peiyu, cecilia, cheryl and yizhen.. very long nv see them so jus hang ard tok abit before heading home..
jialat now already 1plus i haven't do alot of things, n tml mus wake up early to meet my camp mates to watch 300 n go the IT fair.. shit la jus now peiyu spoil abit of the story but nvm.. i jus hope i dun fall asleep during the show can already..
PAY DAY !!! got money to spend already =þ
i m trying my best to walk off..
posted @ 1:28 AM
seriously this is the last time i'm gonna design/code a blog for someone ever again.. the next person who ask me is gonna get charged lolz..
currently i'm doing a blog for the one and oni tootie who so nicely supplied me wif a her own drawing n expect me to beautify it to appear on the blog so nice.. d0tz.. even as i'm typing this, i'm waiting for the photoshop to do it's work finish.. sianz sia..
potatootie.blogspot.com
it kinda remind me of that time huiting force me to design her blog from the scratch wif her sitting beside me.. zzz.. n oni to have it being copied by a friend of hers.. tat was a very bad period i rmb, wif me fighting wif her friend.. luckily her friend dunno how to decipher my codes cos i used those normally dun use one eg. tables.. this time i'm lazy though so i'll jus use the normal box kinds..
talking abt which, sunday night when i was peacefully leaving cathay.. i suddenly heard the name i dreaded the most being shouted.. "NORMIEEE!!!!!" i turned ard n i saw miss cheryl aka cherie aka shirley =X tat's one person i've nv seen for a very long time.. she came towards me, the first thing she did was to put her palm on my face.. wth?? she still looked as pretty as ever, i oni felt tat she was growing fatter.. to which, she replied "i hate u, i dun ever wan to talk to u ever again".. wow.. i gotta be careful wif my words next time..
tml gonna work for half day, then i'm gonna head down to ps cos boss decided to treat us watch movie n eat swensen for dinner.. last time OC treat to bowling n fast forward we have movie.. lolz.. so shiok.. i'm gonna make my way down earlier though to change my modem n scv remote controls.. since starhub is there anywayz.. =))
to miss huiting: hey!! where's my present?? u say feb wan to give now march liaoz.. overdue so long lorz.. =(
posted @ 9:25 PM
dang i feel so stupid.. i changed my weekend duty which is on the 10th of march to the 24th of march.. wat the hell la.. although it's still saturday, but saturdays r rather important to me n i jus delayed the inevitable.. i rather do it n get it over wif.. zzzzzz.. also got another reason la but i wun say out =)
maybe some nice guy would wan to change duty wif me on the 24?? lolz..
whew quite tired after reaching home from camp.. the activities are really getting to me.. even though i stayed in camp the nite before, had plenty of slp, i still feel shag.. like, i got no will power to actually move ard.. instead sitting there n jus rotting.. maybe too long under the sun cos my archery station got no shelter..
actually, now that i think abt it.. actually maybe, oni MAYBE, taking duty on the 24th is not so bad.. 3weeks saya tak perlu jumpa dia, mungkin lagi senang untuk lepaskan dia dari hati.. but will suffer la sia..
i'm actually starting to look forward to ORD.. even though i still duno what's my next step in life.. i'm jus tired of NS n NCC.. seriously, maybe i'll jus go wif cat to visit her mom in the US.. stay there for a few mths before coming back.. or maybe fly over to jun's place to take a breather also can..
smth might be wrong wif me.. i've been having this throbbing headache for the past few days.. on n off one.. n no, panadols dun help this time.. been very distracting as i'm unable to keep my concentration in anything at all..
saya ingat amat senang untuk lepaskan sesuatu, but i was wrong
posted @ 7:22 PM