Days Of My Life

2007-03-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

fuck-ing shit.. y m i always getting into trouble in camp these few days.. all the way for 1yr plus nth happen n now when i wan to ord i always get into shits..

wat the fuck.. u, a lieutenant colonel, always finding trouble wif me.. a mere 3rd sergeant.. i dun understand.. wat the hell u dun like abt me??

i'm being overly stressed these few days.. it's not as though i nv do my job.. i always do it 120%.. else y would my immediate superior like me so much.. n u.. a fuck-ing lieutenant colonel, find problems that other ppl dun even notice..

u can ask anyone u mother f-er.. i admit the first fault u found was totally my fault.. i forgot to inform u when the kid went to hospital for a serious injury.. but this time.. kids report sick also i mus report to u?? cannot be i call u "sir, got 1 kid report sick cos he homesick".. then bloody cb u will fuck-ing fuck me for calling u over this kinda thing.. n now i nv call u, u cb also wan to fuck me..

u urself said, any incident inform the DSO first.. follow dunno wat fuck line of communication.. so when the kids report sick i jus inform DSO how many report sick, their status etc.. it's not like nv do my job.. major one then inform u.. i followed ur orders rite fuck??

it's not like the kid fell down n broke his hand.. u bloody fucker the next time i do duty i'm gonna call u for every single thing i see tat is not right ok??

bloody fuck give me extras till i fucking ord la.. cb i stay in all the way sit the fucking ops room for 24/7 if it's tat wat u wan.. u cb..

i guess, this is it

2007-03-25T04:46:00.000+08:00

i'm losing it i think, i actually went back to drinking n smoking.. losing my cool so easily.. the old me tat i tot i would nv see again.. though i dun think i will ever wack somebody ever again.. but then again, tat's hard to say..

now where's joker when i need him??

i guess this is it.. time to close a chapter of my life spanning from Nov 25 2006 to this moment.. reluctantly..

2007-03-18T09:41:00.000+08:00

damn sad, i spent my saturday doing duty.. sobz.. haiz well, at least it over n done with now.. nth much have been going on lately.. it's mostly camp camp camp... i'm still wishing for ORD to faster come even though i'm clueless abt my next step in life..

fadz went into camp for his 10days confinement, oni to be out on the 3rd day due to a... mishap.. to think on the day itself when tiffany was talking to me, i said jokingly that fadz would fall down in the toilet.. n he really fall down in the toilet.. who the hell, fall in the toilet while showering.. lolz..

on thurs nite, i stayed in due to fri morning need to start work at 6.45am.. so me n 2IC went to the mess, he was telling me he dunno how to play billard, so i took the initiative to teach him.. n hell, i lost to him the first game we played together.. i somehow keep missing, n he somehow, keep snooking me.. n i potted in 75% of the balls.. beginner's luck ?? i dunno man..

tiffany has improved in pool alot.. tues when i went out wif her, she won me in the first 3 games.. i was like, er... shit?? end of the day i won her 5 - 4.. but still, tat's pretty gd of her considering she jus started pool like 2 mths back.. maybe she's a fast learner but i could see that she understood the concept of how the ball hit n move.. now if oni steph could learn tat fast or play as often as her, then i'll gladly fufill watever i promised her..

84more days to the end of my NS.. i really need some ideas on what to do.. i wanted to go study but financially i cannot so tat's out.. maybe i should start looking at jobs adverts on the net and newspaper..

Woke up in a dream today. Forgot all about yesterday. Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore. A little taste of hypocrisy. Fine line between this and that. When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real. Now I'm trapped in this memory and I'm left in the wake of the mistake. Even though you're so close to me, you're still so distant, and I can't bring you back. It's true, the way I feel. The sound of your voice, painted on my memories. Even if you're not with me, I'm with you

2007-03-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

hmm, been spending my time out alot wif my bro fadz cos he's into the next phase of his life tml.. which is serving ns wif the police for the next 2 yrs.. actually when i think he went to police i feel happy for him, cos at least he wun have to go thru all the shit i went thru.. it's jus not worth it..

sat - i went out wif ncc peeps to watch 300 followed by a walk ard the IT fair.. the show is not bad, watch it on a weekday though.. the IT fair is gd, lots of promos i would love to get some of the stuffs there if i had the money lolz.. met up wif fadz n the rest at cine.. went over meridien to play pool n finally at zone x arcade.. wanted to go home when me n fadz pondered over the idea of tonning.. n tat we did.. me, ryan n fadz caught storm the yard at 2am in the morning.. it was not my kind of show so i always struggling to stay awake during the show.. went back home by NR..

sun - the last min planning seoul garden turnout was not too bad.. 8 peeps in total.. me, fadz, tiff, ryan, james, calvin, eric n his gf.. we had a hell of a time in there.. spending almost 2hrs there.. i had sore throat yet i still eat all those fried stuffs, i'm sure asking for trouble.. once again i failed in making ice kachang.. after so many times of eating seoul garden i think i finally realise y i always fail.. lots of funny things happen there.. like.. tiffany scoop ice cream, the ice cream also can fly one.. we went to cine k pool to... play pool.. played for 2hrs i think before heading over the marina square wif the tots of playing arcade till the wee hrs of the day but bloody hell the arcade close at 12.. so we made our way to marina south instead.. lolz.. played until abt 3am before heading home.. long day..

mon - today i woke up feeling pretty shitty so i decided to report sick.. i oni went to the clinic at 2 plus, a mistake.. so many ppl i waited for almost 2 hrs to get everything done., i think i wait till i ok already.. went down cine to meet the rest.. didn't do much cos fadz n tiff went to watch movie while the rest of us decided to save money n give it a miss.. we went to ps to play game till ard 9 plus after i decided to call it a day cos i was too tired n i got work the next day.. sad, y the doc nv give me 2 days mc..

well bro, it's time for u to step into the new phase of ur life.. u can call me if there is anything, although i think ppl like ryan can help u more in terms of police stuffs.. i jus hope that tiffany dun start calling me everyday.. n finally, take care of urself, i'll see ya when u book out..

everyone's moving forward but i'm still looking back

2007-03-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

once again, my dear cousin got harressed by someone from woodlands.. makes me wonder wat kinda of ppl is staying at woodlands.. well, here's the article taken from her blog..

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PUBLIC TRANSPORTS ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PUBLIC!!!!!!!
so does that mean it gives people the rite to do anything they want??
even violating people's PRIVACY?????????
FUCK OFF LAH U GAWD DAMN IRRITATING FREAK!!!!!!
a few weeks ago it was some guy throwing a fugging paper at me with his number written on it..
and TODAY....
A FUGGING PSYCHO GUY took pictures of me using his phone..
LIKE MY GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so STUPID SIA...
even if u want to take photos..
do at least off the camera sounds...
IT WAS SOOOOOOOO FUGGING IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!
and guess where that man came from???
WOODLANDS!!!!!
what's up with the woodlands station man??
isit like infested with sooo many psycho maniacs????
this chinese guy just appeared from seat and sat rite in front of me...
and he was like using he's nokia 5300 phone and directing it rite in front if me..
at first i tot maybe he was taking pics to try out his new phone..
den i realised...
he not only took one pic..
he started taking again..
and again..
i got so damn uncomfortable i felt like screaming...
den thankfully a woman stood in front of me..
and blocked him...
and then...
when the train was reaching YEW TEE, he began to position his cam at me again..
and when two women walked past, he like held his phone back..
i'm like HELLO????????
its like so GAWD DAMN OBVIOUS CAN?????????????
den i quickly stood up and walked to the door...
and guess what he did???
he actually had the GUTS AND BALLS to move and turn and aim his camera towards me..
SO FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY GOODNESSSS!!!!!
i cant believe such ppl exist..
and seriously...
i'm freaking out...
really really freaking out...
this is why i hate going anywhere alone..
coz i easily get HARRASSED!!!!!!!
why cant i have some peace????
*GOSH*

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this text has not been edited in anyway to maintain originality n flavour =þ

so peeps, esp those pretty gals, be very careful whenever u pass by woodlands mrt, u might land up to be the next victims of theo-like personnel..

nth really much to update la actually.. today went to work as usual, bla bla bla.. after work went to meridien to play pool wif fadz, tiff, wenyao n edison.. had dinner over there before heading over to heeren dnyk?? [forget the place] to meet up wif peiyu, cecilia, cheryl and yizhen.. very long nv see them so jus hang ard tok abit before heading home..

jialat now already 1plus i haven't do alot of things, n tml mus wake up early to meet my camp mates to watch 300 n go the IT fair.. shit la jus now peiyu spoil abit of the story but nvm.. i jus hope i dun fall asleep during the show can already..

PAY DAY !!! got money to spend already =þ

i m trying my best to walk off..

2007-03-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

seriously this is the last time i'm gonna design/code a blog for someone ever again.. the next person who ask me is gonna get charged lolz..

currently i'm doing a blog for the one and oni tootie who so nicely supplied me wif a her own drawing n expect me to beautify it to appear on the blog so nice.. d0tz.. even as i'm typing this, i'm waiting for the photoshop to do it's work finish.. sianz sia..

potatootie.blogspot.com

it kinda remind me of that time huiting force me to design her blog from the scratch wif her sitting beside me.. zzz.. n oni to have it being copied by a friend of hers.. tat was a very bad period i rmb, wif me fighting wif her friend.. luckily her friend dunno how to decipher my codes cos i used those normally dun use one eg. tables.. this time i'm lazy though so i'll jus use the normal box kinds..

talking abt which, sunday night when i was peacefully leaving cathay.. i suddenly heard the name i dreaded the most being shouted.. "NORMIEEE!!!!!" i turned ard n i saw miss cheryl aka cherie aka shirley =X tat's one person i've nv seen for a very long time.. she came towards me, the first thing she did was to put her palm on my face.. wth?? she still looked as pretty as ever, i oni felt tat she was growing fatter.. to which, she replied "i hate u, i dun ever wan to talk to u ever again".. wow.. i gotta be careful wif my words next time..

tml gonna work for half day, then i'm gonna head down to ps cos boss decided to treat us watch movie n eat swensen for dinner.. last time OC treat to bowling n fast forward we have movie.. lolz.. so shiok.. i'm gonna make my way down earlier though to change my modem n scv remote controls.. since starhub is there anywayz.. =))

to miss huiting: hey!! where's my present?? u say feb wan to give now march liaoz.. overdue so long lorz.. =(

2007-02-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

dang i feel so stupid.. i changed my weekend duty which is on the 10th of march to the 24th of march.. wat the hell la.. although it's still saturday, but saturdays r rather important to me n i jus delayed the inevitable.. i rather do it n get it over wif.. zzzzzz.. also got another reason la but i wun say out =)

maybe some nice guy would wan to change duty wif me on the 24?? lolz..

whew quite tired after reaching home from camp.. the activities are really getting to me.. even though i stayed in camp the nite before, had plenty of slp, i still feel shag.. like, i got no will power to actually move ard.. instead sitting there n jus rotting.. maybe too long under the sun cos my archery station got no shelter..

actually, now that i think abt it.. actually maybe, oni MAYBE, taking duty on the 24th is not so bad.. 3weeks saya tak perlu jumpa dia, mungkin lagi senang untuk lepaskan dia dari hati.. but will suffer la sia..

i'm actually starting to look forward to ORD.. even though i still duno what's my next step in life.. i'm jus tired of NS n NCC.. seriously, maybe i'll jus go wif cat to visit her mom in the US.. stay there for a few mths before coming back.. or maybe fly over to jun's place to take a breather also can..

smth might be wrong wif me.. i've been having this throbbing headache for the past few days.. on n off one.. n no, panadols dun help this time.. been very distracting as i'm unable to keep my concentration in anything at all..

saya ingat amat senang untuk lepaskan sesuatu, but i was wrong

2007-02-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

monday blues is hitting me hard at the moment.. i'm feeling damn sick of going to work.. i can't really explain the feeling in me now.. it's jus i wan to take some time off, relax n work out my messy mind..

maybe it is due to the long cny holiday tat i had.. from fri to wed.. oni going back to work for 2 days last week tat is causing this laziness of mine to pop up.. hmm, i should be staying in camp tml as i dun feel like going back home..

fadz, tiff n james came over to my hse today.. abt 11plus, i was darn tired though due to the prev night unable to slp.. i had nightmare abt zombies.. mus be reading too much resident evil books lately.. the funny thing is that it is abt me, steph, fadz and tiff.. well i can't rmb much abt it, oni rmb tat i was darn happy when i found a M16 wif a box of ammo nearby.. n looking at the 2 gals shooting zombies is another thing.. somehow they appear to be so gung ho in the dream whereas in real life... =þ

anywayz, they came over wif the plans to go swim, but somehow it did not go that way.. fadz ended up slping.. james playing winning eleven on the computer, tiffany bugging james to let her use the com.. tiff ended up playing wif my light sticks.. cutting it up n pouring it all over the place so that everything glows.. i decided to go to dreamland in hopes of finishing of the nightmare.. it didn't happen though lol..

we went to eat at the prata shop nearby before heading over to lot 1 to play pool.. tiff had the urge to play.. well, i didn't really play much due to me wearing glasses but somehow, everyone is like off form today.. maybe cos the table is diff??

anywayz, planning to have a seoul garden eating session on the 17th of march, saturday, if i'm not wrong.. so peeps, save ur money now.. my duty for the month of march is on a saturday but i really hope it wun fall on this date.. maybe i will change to sunday.. see anybody wan to change wif me anot =(

2007-02-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

i saw this from my couz blog n i decided to share it with everyone..

taken from jun's blog (dun mind ar)

*start*

anyway...
when the train stopped at WOODLANDS..
a man entered..
and well...
obviously i wouldn't take notice of him..
NOT UNTIL...
as he alighted at KRANJI...
he walked passed me...
and he threw a piece of folded paper at me..
i was already like...
WHAT THE F!!!!!!
why are u throwing paper at me????
and everyone was looking lah...
DAMN EMBARRASSING seh...
and when i looked at the paper...
it was then tt i realise...
he wrote his name and hp no...
and he expected me to call him...
*GAWD*
these kinda tactics still exists??????????????????
pls man....
u are a STRANGER!!!!!!!!
i dun even noe u...
and hu do u think i am??
to be throwing ur phone number on a piece of pathetic paper at me??????????
MY GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm praying hard i dun bump into him again..
as a matter of fact i dun even recognise his face..
GOSH!!!!!!!

*end*

when i saw tat, the first person that actually crossed my mind was theo.. lolz.. as far as i noe, he's the most likely candidate for this kinda of stupid thing.. or there are actually ppl out there like him whom i do not know yet.. not that i wan to know them.. i jus feel it's damn funny la.. lamer guy..

ytd.. tootie was being disturb by this person on msn.. apparently he was a dirty fellow so i acted as a horny gal to pull him away from tootie.. dang i didn't save the conversation cos i accidently close the window.. i think maybe tootie has it.. of well at least part of it.. it was quite funny.. ask me n her on when u see us for more details =)

today i accompanied ah huat after work to do some shopping.. he went to get a i pod nano n i was almost tempted into getting one as well.. but after weighing the pros n cons.. i decided not to.. maybe i will get a creative one.. after my current one spoil tat is.. fadz had the same model as mine n it went down after a yr of usage.. mine is almost 1 yr already.. let's see whether it will happen to me anot =) if it does.. creative neon it is..

2007-02-21T17:16:00.000+08:00

first of all, let me wish everyone a happy chinese new yr n may ur ang pao's collection be alot..

abit late though but nvm la at least got wish =)

this is kinda a long holiday for me cos i was off from work since friday till wed.. too bad thurs mus go back to work cos got smth to do else i sure take off till next week..

well, even though it's long, it felt kinda short. somehow it jus felt short even though i ton almost every nite since sat. time seems to fly when ur happy, enjoying n slows to a crawl when u r bored like studying, working..

overall, i think it's jus how often u take a look at ur watch =)

nth much going on frankly speaking, my collections also not alot cos i nv go bai nian-ing and also cos my chinese relatives not alot.. lost $15 from gambling but tat's alright.. lost alot more actually luckily won back some..

phones sure dun like me.. i got 3 handphones and all 3 decided to go down on me.. so i'm using a spoilt handphone.. i noe ppl call always like cannot get thru, i'm sorry as this is my phone problem pls bear wif it until i ORD first cos i dun see a point to change phone cos i cannot bring to camp also..

been hanging out wif some ppl i dun usually hang ard wif the past few days.. got to noe quite a few new ppl also.. not bad la can extend my network..

2nd nite was wif Jovin (i very long nv call him jovin liaoz always ter loon, ter loon) that gang.. it's become a once a yr routine for cny to go to terence place to meet up.. i miss those days where we would everyday hang out to tok crap etc.. but they have move on in life, being 25 yrs old this yr.. having settled down wif a car etc.. while i'm still stuck here in ns.. well, i do hope when i'm 25 i can be like them.. a gd example.. a bad example would be, like wen yao?? =x

think i will stop here for now.. some stuffs is bogging up my mind n i need to clear it up first..

i'm sorry, i really wanted to walk down the road wif u.. suddenly i felt the need to take bigger steps, leaving u behind..

2007-02-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i jus feel like saying this out..

theophilus chen!! u wan to settle things wif me come n see me face to face.. dun hide behind some wall n keep on bad mouthing me.. i am waiting here!! right in the open for u!! n yet u choose to hide.. u bloody piece of *censored*

sorry abt tat.. i jus had to say tat out after reading his blog.. i wun bother to type wat he said cos it's a waste of my time.. thanks to fadz for highlighting this out to me..

hmm, today was a BALL day for me.. y?? u'll see..

9am - played soccer wif the usual gang.. somehow i was rather off form today.. n to put in Football Manager terms.. all my stats drop by 10 pts..

10am - went for a meeting wif commandant.. after all this while in NCC i nv actually attended a meeting wif commandant in it before..

11am - went for MESS activity, which is the buffet lunch, orange and ang pow giving etc.. u get the picture..

1pm - headed to Orchid Country Club to play bowling.. can say it is a Training Cadre outing.. while waiting for the rest to arrive since we all took different transport over, me n jeremiah went to play billard..

money can really improve alot of things.. when MAJ Chua offered $50 dollars to the best team in bowling, i reached the ever highest score in my whole entire life for bowling.. which is 165pts.. tat's gd for me cos i normally dun play bowling one.. oni pool.. but i didn't get the highest =(

went to meet the fadz, tiff, darren at cine after bowling.. did the usual stuffs there etc. play truck game, disturbing tiff.. and we went to have dinner.. after dinner, we went to play pool!!

so to round it up, i played soccer, billard, bowling and pool all in one day.. understand y it's a ball day for me??

but it's ok, i oni spend abt $10 which is gd considering all the stuffs i did today =))

i will be waiting..

2007-02-14T19:38:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i updated.. mainly cos i was busy n kinda lazy also..

firstly, fadz has finally received his ns letter.. going in 13 march.. not so bad la cos he kanna police instead of the usual army.. i think quite shiok compared to army.. he's going in when i'm abt to ORD.. life gonna be abit dull but i'll work smth out wif the rest..

thanks to tiffany, for accompanying me to buy my new yr stuffs on last sunday.. thanks for choosing the clothes etc for me.. too bad some dun have the size i need else would be betta.. i noe a bit slow when choosing clothes so sorry ar..

hmm, been spending quite abit for the past few days due to new yr stuffs, clothes, drinking etc.. this is the 4th day after pay day n i already spend more then 1/2 of my pay.. die la how to survive..

as usual monday n tuesday got camp feast.. thus lots of cadets came n i was very busy.. i did rappelling station this time, learn quite a few stunts this time.. lolz.. was scared like hell though since i went down head first.. i was like, wat if i fall wat if i fall.. tat's it la..

nth much to tok cos all i did this few days was to go thru n fro from camp to home n at home also do spring cleaning oni.. fri got MESS activity so hopefully after the activity will get half day off.. then i can go home rest abit before asking tiffany out to acc to douby ghaut to finish off watever i haven't buy..

ok la i stop here for now.. nth much to tok and also i'm on duty.. by right i'm not supposed to do this kinda thing eg: youtube, blogging.. but by left.. lolz..

2007-02-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

hmm today is such a boring day.. nth much going on in camp.. n i'm on duty!!!! wth la.. stay in again.. 3 times this week already..

as usual i went for my morning breakfast after some area cleaning given by RSM.. cos there's some unit advisor thing going on in the afternoon so mus touch up the camp abit.. i went back to office to play my FM.. wanted to slp but decided not to else i would be a pig n grow fat as well.. after lunch time abt 12 CLT's came to report to me cos we r going to demo the flying fox station to the VIP of later's ceremony.. i'm like attached to flying fox always when it come to flying fox it's me.. did a dry run wif them once before slacking on the top of the tower.. somehow i managed to fall asleep when i was up in the tower.. lucky i nv roll till fall off the tower.. else my injuries will be 1000 times worse then wat i have now.. well, me n my guys were up there for like 3 hrs waiting for that stupid idiot to come n watch.. when finally he did, we jus went flying off the tower will bursting party poppers.. lolz.. so lame la as i watched all the colorful flakes flew down.. like snowing like tat.. was hoping that the wind will blow till NYP so that no need to clean up tml lolz.. after that i reported for duty, 2WO Steven wanted to have a drink wif me so i went to the mess to drink a can of TIGER while he took STOUT.. geez i hate stout.. paid for him as i owe him one tea break for losing to him in chinese chess.. lolz..

well, toked wif him awhile before 2WO Dennis jioed him to play billard.. lolz.. still can tell me sure win 2WO Steven one.. well, as far as i noe 2WO Steven is unbeatable here.. lolz.. 5mins ago the score was.. 2WO Steven 4 games, 2WO Dennis 1 game.. lolz..

ok la i go watch them play somemore.. can learn alot of things from 2WO Steven.. Eric called me jus now saying wan to meet this weekend.. i think i will go wif him n maybe skip cine grp if the timings clash..

2007-02-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

well i'm finally back home after 2 days of staying in camp.. tml mus stay in again so sianz.. hmm i jus changed the backgrd music of the blog.. this one sounds more.. sadder???

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well the first day of camp feast, every week i dread this cos there r so many cadets!! when will they ever stop coming to do adventure activities?? lolz, this time i was doing flying fox station.. for.. 236 cadets!! tat's like alot sia.. as usual after the morning briefing i went to eat breakfast [growing fatter] then i went back to office.. in office i saw halif so i tok to him abt wat's going on in my mind while waiting for the ice breaking activities to start.. come 11am i went to do my station which was "low wall".. a wall which is like 2times higher then me.. n it's called low.. i wonder wat's high then.. i think for my station i oni managed to clear abt 135ppl due to time constrains etc.. lunch was not bad, the same old food i always been eating lolz.. i went back to office to play football manager for 10 mins before heading to set up my flying fox station.. seeing the station reminds me of wat stephee said to me on sat..

"if i go down this station i will sure scream like a crazy gal"

well, ur not the oni one.. many ppl do scream when they go down.. or even worse at the edge already then die die dun wan to move.. forcing me to.. take some actions eg. push them.. i sound so evil suddenly.. i managed to clear abt 130 ppl today.. not bad leaving me abt 90 for tml.. syafiq was helping out at the camp feast so he came up to the tower to do flying fox since i was there.. haha i gave him.. a nice ride.. i twisted his cable until when he moved off, he was spinning like a yoyo in the sky.. lolz.. i rmbed him cursing me when he reach the other end of the line.. tat's for disturbing me earlier on during lunch..
for those looking for him, he can be found working at ps carrefour from wed to sun at the cashier.. either 1st floor or the b2 one cos he will shift here n there..

at night i went to the mess wif kelvin, anthony and halif.. we wanted to drink tiger n when we opened the fridge, we saw cartons of guiness stout but oni 3 tiger.. i was like, oh shit.. we decided to go for the stout even though i kinda sworn off stout.. kevin came halfway.. they r gd buddies la listening to watever i have to say n giving me advice.. lolz.. oh man i nv gonna drink stout cos it taste like shit.. i was put off by the taste tat all of us oni drank 1 can each..

tues
this is the day.. where we will go down to the cage for our match..

morning i did flying fox again.. i finished off my the last guy abt 11am, i hurried to the store to keep my stuffs before running of to office to take a break.. i kinda tot that resting would make me more energize for the night's match.. well, i slacked till 5.30.. n everybody came dragging me up to the bunk to get changed.. when everybody ready to go.. we were thinking of how to get to kallang from our place.. then we saw the bangla workers on a lorry.. so came the stupid idea..

"uncle ar, where r u headed to?"

"i going to paya lebar tat area"

"paya lebar.. near kallang rite?? can give us a ride??"

and so all of us, abt 13 ppl.. squeezed onto the back of the lorry wif a few bangla workers.. i'm so glad they r not gays or anything.. the ride was uncomfortable but at least it got us to the place.. i was sitting on a ladder.. pain alright.. wif my back aching after we got off.. from there we went on to eat dinner, n finally we went to the place..

damn the place is nice la.. it's like a street soccer court, wif artificial grass n everything.. so everybody eagerly went to changed n after deciding the teams, we headed straight into the match.. for some reason, everybody was playing at full speed.. the tempo of passes, shooting and everything was so fast, by 10mins everyone was winded out.. esp me.. my speed everything is there but not the stamina.. lolz.. well, we lost some, won some.. overall not bad la.. ajay was complaining his team got too many "man's".. his team was, ajay, sulaiman, rahman, azman.. lolz..
lucky i was not in tat team else all would be "man!! ball" then i wouldn't noe which "man" is he toking abt..

i had 2 injuries

strain back: expected to be out for a week

swollen toe: expected to be out for 3 days

after the game we went to makan again!! [exercise so much then eat wat's the point?]

the uncle was damn stressed when he saw us lolz.. cos we were like..

uncle, not enuff seats la.. i dunno how many ppl coming.. maybe 20 more..

can move this table anot? no one seating here.. can la..

uncle we order first... [5mins later] er.. uncle we still haven't decide u later then come back ok?

the highlight

"uncle ar, got teh anot??"

"of cos got la" [proceed to write teh in his order list]

"uncle i wan milo peng"

haha, tat was damn funny la.. we took taxi back to camp.. reached there ard 12.30am then to our horror, we needed to decorate the theaterette.. wth la.. so late already still mus do work.. so on we went working till 2am.. i was damn tired la tat i swore i could jus slp if i lie down.. then they started to tok abt ghost stories.. then kelvin damn scared to go bath alone.. lolz.. dragged me, anthony n brandon follow him shower.. we wanted to explore this abandoned building but ended up backing out cos we had no torchlight n humji-ness got better of us.. i jus realised amoy quee means female ghost.. wat de.. how come the camp name like tat one.. well, took a nice shower and went to slp while the rest went to watch some drama on the com..

wed
this morning i couldn't get up la, not cos of lack of slp but becos of my back.. i had to ask kelvin to pull me up.. to add on to the misery i was conducting spec for the 3.5km run.. so i had no choice but to go for the run although i noe stephee will kill me for this.. i was damn slow la due to the injuries.. from being the first few normally i dropped to the last.. clocking a time of 15mins.. slow slow.. but it's ok, my injuries were hampering me..

actually when i think abt it, i did nth at all for today.. after the run i went to slp.. until 4pm.. wth la.. lolz..

finally i'm back home after 2days of staying in.. actually i rather not be home as it causes my mind to wander ard.. not gd at all.. tok to stephee for awhile n sorted out some stuffs wif her..

long post eh, it took me 40mins to type out lor..

i did it.. i managed to do it.. or at least i think i did it..

hey joker, my buddy, looks like u have an extended job to do.. sorry..

2007-02-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

YEAH!! SINGAPORE WON THE MATCH AGAINST THAILAND!!

well anywayz, i jus came back after going out to town to meet fadz, tiff and james.. i didn't wan to go out at first.. but i was dying at home due to boredom and my thoughts..

2 highlights regarding tiffany that made me felt that she's more stupid then the tooty herself

1. you noe at KFC when u buy a 2 piece chicken meal it will come wif 1 whip potato n 1 coslaw.. so while eating KFC, she takes a coslaw, take a bite n complain tat got no sauce she dun wan to eat.. 5 second later, she takes the coslaw again, thinking tat it is whip potato and she asked "y is there another coslaw??" omg.. tat's like.. it's oni 5 seconds.. talking abt stupid..

2. while playing pool at meridien, i kinda forgot wat she did actually.. but somehow, jus SOMEHOW the tip of the cue stick landed on her face.. then there was this mark on her face caused by the chalk.. it's was damn funny la.. james laugh till so loud while she there trying to rub off the chalk off her face.. buey tahan..

I HAD OFFICIATE TIFFANY TO BE THE MOST STUPIDEST GER I'VE KNOWN

this was after a long debating whether tooty or tiff is more stupid but i decided wat tiff done is more then enuff to earn that converted award..

i jus realised smth also.. i actually thrives on pool nine feet table oni.. on eight or seven i will suck till very bad.. maybe this explains my past few days playing form.. like today, we opened at 8 ft table first, dang i suck at it.. when we change to 9 ft.. i was like back to normal..
i think i might take a few weeks off the cine grp.. ask eric to train me in pool again then i will be GOD when i return.. haha..

while at meridien, i actually saw someone that looks like theo.. i'm serious.. from the side and back view.. front view, if seen from a distance resembles theo alot.. i would have presume tat wat he would have look like if he was more like us.. as in fashion sense and everything.. he's abit shorter then theo, abit more plump-er.. haha.. he really resembles theo until i feel like wacking him while waiting for the "prince" to appear before my eyes..

anywayz peeps, i posted a suggestion in the friendster cine grp regarding chinese new yr so do drop by n see whether is it ok anot.. any feedback or improvement can be made there or my tag board..

haiz tml go back to camp.. will be conducting flying fox again.. i'm going to die.. well, monday is bad for me n her.. we'll make it though as usual..

hmm, i more or less sorted out my thoughts already.. now is to put it into action oni.. cos it's damn easy to say but hard to take action.. but at least i feel alot betta now..

hey joker, u did a gd job today.. pls, continue for the time being..

reopening of blog

2007-02-04T12:20:00.000+08:00

hmm, i reopened my blog.. this time i customized it with a very dark skin as i was feeling damn messed up as i was doing this.. i could not slp anywayz so i tot i might as well try and reopen my blog.. at least i could use it like a diary the next time i see it..

was reading through my friendster testimonials before i've closed it down.. they all said i'm a nice guy.. but frankly speaking deep in myself i think i'm not.. or izzit more like they dun understand me at all.. i supposed i dun tok much abt myself.. anybody reading this can tell me, anything i tok abt is always abt u, him, her, that person, this person.. nv abt me..
well anywayz, i decided to take a short break from everything.. reaffirm where i'm standing and where should i head to.. i'm making myself go in circles into a path where nth will come out of it.. in a sense i'm making myself suffer for nth.. but it's hard as i did tried.. i really did.. maybe i need more time.. some MIA-ing for awhile.. n i'll should be able to get out..

if i ever choose to MIA, pls dun blame me.. i have my reasons for doing so.. i just don't wan ppl to get affected by it n everything.. i think if that happens oni Fadz knows how to get to me.. =) i would have done more, or tried harder.. once bitten twice shy they said.. well i was bitten thrice already haha.. i can't go through another bout of that..

i won't be updating so often as my daily life is kinda boring.. is more like go to work, back home rest, the next day go to work again.. i'm only looking forward to Saturday every week but now even Saturday seems to be so dull.. the more i think abt it, y m i even putting on a smiling face??

i'm starting to feel tat colyn is some kinda physic.. everytime when i'm down she'll somehow come n msg me asking me how m i doing.. talking abt her also makes me wonder how long i've known her.. almost as long as peiyu n huiting if not longer.. i have to admit that although we rarely contact now, she still listed under my best friends..

thanks to Jingwei aka the "noob" for listening to me for abt 1hr last nite.. i really needed that bro.. u have moved on in life, being a school teacher and everything while i am still stuck here in army.. i used to be the one listening to u giving u all the advice in camp when we always stayed in but now, u r the one giving it to me.. i nv expected it to turn out this way u noe.. cos u were always so negative abt everything n i'm the positive one.. but now i think abt it, maybe i was the more negative person.. as the current situation stands bro, u r now what i m in those days..

i reposted 2 of my previous entries mainly on april 2006 cos that's when i had the fight wif fadz.. i felt that no point for me to hide it anymore.. for those ppl like steph dunno wat's izzit abt.. it's abt a stupid quarrel me n him had over his bdae celebration.. i would say it's my fault but at that point of time, being hot headed and everything, i refused to give in..

i will stop here for now.. i'm darn tired as i couldn't slp last nite.. i'll try to get some slp now..

joker!! where r u i really need u to cover for me i'm dying here..

2006-04-30T02:00:00.001+08:00

hmm, have not been contacting much wif anybody except those from ncc.. they make me forget everything.. haha..

today's entry nth much one la.. cos i also dunno wat to type.. let's see..

board games n cards games can be very fun.. lots of laughter to be followed.. haha.. really, i didn't realise it until they brought me to this place called mind's cafe which is opp. parklane there.. this place got many many kinds of board n card games that we dun usually play.. mainly we played the "noisy" genre n ended up making so much noise n laughters.. haha.. best of all it's cheap as it's on a weekday..

$5 for 4hrs of gameplay n free flow of drinks?? haha.. y not sia.. but i guess it can oni happen once in a blue moon as weekdays we all where got free one shuld be in camp doing work haha..

today, went to town to meet fadz n tiff at far east.. ate at this place which is quite gd the food.. somehow i can't rmb the stall name haha.. anywayz, ended up at cine as usual, rotted there as usual.. wanted to play kof but joystick fuck up for both.. ended up practicing my pool haha..

went home early cos tml i need to go to pan's wedding.. i lost sia when wong suddenly told me pan's getting married.. well, i guess everybody is lost haha.. it's like he nv mentioned anything then suddenly pop up "hey peeps, i'm getting married on this sunday".. n it's not one of those fadzli kind of lame "i'm going to get married on the 29th of Feb".. but anywayz, wish him all the best..

2006-04-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

my attitudes stinks eh.. well, if tat's the case then i shall not bother anymore abt them.. i mean really.. if ppl hu r close to me feels tat i'm tat way.. then no point for me to go n make them sian by seeing me rite bro??

maybe i'm not wat i felt i m.. true i talk too much at times.. but it's betta then my old sec self where i dun say anything n my temper is short like hell?? but well, at least u told me somethings tat i didn't noe or notice.. as u noe there r oni a few ppl whom i actually think is close to me..

"Time and time again, your mouth would screw up and blurt something you shouldn't"
"You also said some things to her that you shouldn't, I know. It disgusted me when she told me what you told her" >>
the thing i'm curious wif is did i say out so many things tat would endanger ur relationship wif her?? i oni rmb once.. oni once.. the day u went to some hotel for some dinner n i let slip smth.. but i remedied it after tat rite? other then tat i nv even tok much to her.. if u dun count craps.. 95% of the time i'm wif her u're also wif her.. unless she telling u B when i toking bout A which i doubt so..

u noe, this issue has always been nagging in my head.. at some point of a day.. there's bound to be a period when it's jus me, u n her.. eg. going home.. i noe u dun mind.. n she say she doesn't, but does she mean it?? well not oni her la but since dunno when la.. i jus dun like the feeling if u get wat i mean..

"If I wasn't a brother, I would have told them "Yeah boy! He sucks to the core!"" >> does tat mean u agree wif them too??

yeah i'm grateful too.. for being there all this time..

i nv hung our friendship.. there was a A n B in tat sms.. maybe the way i put it seems tat way.. all i needed was a reply tat's all.. noeing our "hate tat person" feeling, u wun even bother to reply if u hated tat person.. tat's y the B is in there..

i'm sorry.. really.. i jus need to know hu thinks my attitude stinks.. who u defended me from.. even if it includes u.. i'll noe wat to do myself..

anywayz, happy 21st bdae.. ur old liaoz man..

2006-04-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

in regards of me n fadz

ok i had this fight wif him today. more like is he say watever shit he wans to me as if i were to say anything back it might add on more fuel. wat happen was this, fadz had his bdae celebration today. i was not myself. not in the mood. i went there like a zombie. i left early as i was damn bored. then he not happy wif it. when i meet him later in the night, tiff confronted me bout it. didn't wan to get tiff involved fadz went straight to the point.

he's right in a way. but the things u said..

i hurt ur feelings?? then u didn't hurt mine when u said u can treat me like theo??

i dun treat u like a bro?? when u broke up wif tiff the first time due to samantha i sided wif u even though everyone was against u.. even though i myself dun approve of u doing it.. i even tried to explain to them y u did tat..
i noticed tat she was playing wif u.. i told ya abt it.. yet u dun wan refused to listen..
u n tiff quarrel.. i tried to help.. this kind of small small things u dun notice one ar?
hu's the one not treating me as a bro?? rmb the time when u called me go cine, when i reached there u told me u watching movie wif amanda in 5 mins.. nvm i wait.. wait like idiot when u came out u told me u wanted to send her home then go home.. i was pissed.. so when i told u abt wat i felt we had a big fight n u said i didn't understand u..

so this time i chose not to tell u how i was feeling.. n u said to me ur not a physic how to expect u to noe that i feeling shitty today.. then i'm not a physic as well how the hell would i noe u would feel hurt if i left??

u say as if this is the last yr u'll live like tat.. not everyday is ur bdae come on it's not even the day in the first place..

guess those things we said like being neighbours next time will nv happen yeah?? i'm already down wif her n u throw this bombshell onto me..

together wif u, we have seen many friends come n go.. well, i guess it's my turn to go now..

2006-04-14T03:04:00.000+08:00

man i love the peeps in ncc.. they make me feel as if i'm right at home.. not the warrant officers but nsf like me.. haha..

me n kevin installed warcraft 3 into the clt club for future usage of playing when we r in "smoking out" mood lol..

today was a very quiet day in camp.. in training cadre all the specs took off except for me n kevin -_-" i was like er.. siao la got sai kang confirm tio one.. luckly all the warrant officers had to go somewhere in the afternoon so i was busy oni in the morning part.. so when afternoon came.. it was warcraft time lol.. played for quite awhile in the club as there was no one to bother me.. bout 4pm though got some clts need to use the coms for some work rsm gave them so like bo pian lo we all had to give up the coms to them.. it's their club after all..

when back to office n slacked.. i fell asleep while watching kevin play psp lol.. soon was time to go off work liaoz.. me n jingwei went to bugis to meet up wif wong n randy.. wanted to eat bk but the one near bugis was overcrowded so we went to the one nearer to sim lim square.. a stupid conversation tat happen during this time..

when we were still at bugis
randy: let's take 10 min to plan wat to do after we makan
jingwei: aiya nvm one when we makan tat time can think one very fast one

at bk
randy: so how wan to go where after this
rest: hmm....

after makan
randy : some suggestion pls???
me: nnb somebody said during makan can think very fast one
jingwei (looking into the sky acting blur)

well.. we ended up taking a walk to suntec from bugis.. not tat far if u ask me.. walked ard suntec looking at stuffs n we got lost a few times (this is wat happens when u let a officer lead the way).. we ended up at starbucks where we sat n talk crap for a few hours.. actually they r damn funny.. make me laugh all the way haha.. after tat it was home sweet home.. n we meet on msn to chat crap again..

i'm gonna love this gang.. too bad they ORD soon.. haiz..

i'm sorry for the things i said to u ytd.. it came out of my mind without me thinking through it.. i may have brought bad memories or hurt ur feelings.. i jus wan u to noe i didn't mean anything i said at all.. sorry..

2006-04-09T14:24:00.000+08:00

weekends always seems to be so short ain't it?? especially for those hu can oni book out during weekends. i know tat feeling i was feeling it before i went to NCC. sadly to say even though i got a stay out posting now i still feel tat my weekend is damn short haha.

went to sentosa ytd. everybody was late. me n ryan reached there first. waited for ting at hawker center there then we went to makan. shared a carrot cake wif ting. lucky we share cos the carrot cake not nice at all. fadz came when we were abt to makan finish so still not so bad la. hazel came soon afterwards. victor woke up damn late so he meet us at sentosa straight.

was so afraid tat it would rain as the weather didn't look gd at all. however it did not rain at all suprisingly. but then there was alot of clouds till there was no sun at all. i wanted to suntan one also no chance to haha.

we started to leave abt 3 plus like tat. by the time we reach town it was almost 6, jus nice to go makan dinner. went straight to breekz to makan dinner. not bad the food. but i guess i ate too much whip potato. haha. i had like 5 whip potato. haha. after tat went to cine to meet up wif the rest of the gang. actually i felt tat shuld not go there as ting n hazel doesn't know them.

so i jus acc. them all the while. wanted to head to parklane but as we were leaving tat time, hazel n ting saw some friends n they went to talk to them. well, i got this bad thing abt me. which is when i'm abt to leave n somebody say to me wait 5 mins leh, i tend to get abit angry. well, which wat happened ytd n i jus walked off. went to parklane myself n the rest soon caught up wif me. didn't play much kof as got alot of ppl there dunno y also.

so we diverted to play pool. tried to teach ting the basics of pool but me, being a lousy teacher, couldn't impart much knowlegde to her. sad. haha. ting n hazel went off at abt 11 like tat cos they tot we not tonning. then end up fadz n tiff wanted to come over my place. if i knew i wun tell ting then not tonning haha.

as usual those 2 came over my place, talk crap, relax. it's like becoming a weekly routine for me already haha. this coming sat which is 15apr, we going to celebrate fadz bdae. no plans as of now but we'll conceive one during the weekdays.

tml peiyu bdae!! 2 of the most imp. ppl in my life bdae is jus few 3 days apart. lost. haha. still owe quite a no. of presents. die la. going to be bankrupt =((

2006-04-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

somebody complain i nv update my blog so here i am again.

anywayz, i really dunno wat to write so i'll jus write abt my day in... NCC!!!

haha, morning i went for a run wif my buddies.. run for like 45mins plus plus.. quite tired after the run.. kevin "my gaming kaki" went to the gym.. actually i wanted to go but my upperstudy, Gwee, jio-ed me to go to "Zouk". "Zouk" is actually a club for CLT's. inside there is like few coms for us to use n i always go there play online game haha.

anywayz, after tat i went to canteen makan breakfast wif Gwee. when i left the club there was no one then when i return.. ALL THE COMS WERE TAKEN!!! WTF!!! so i ended up slping there lol.

after lunch there was paintball.. stupid sia oni 20ppl come then expect us to set up the whole thing for them.. very mafan lo mus go clean the weapons all this after they use.. wasting my time oni sia.. when i could be relaxing one corner.. after all the shit was done, i went to see cadets training for mount ophir.. poor thing sia i see them kanna so tough training.. kinda reminds me of when i jus enlisted into army those days.. well watching for awhile, i went back to "clubbing" till time to go home lol..

i'm going to grow fat.. all i do this days is to eat, slp, tekan ppl n play game.. haiz.. =((

so sad.. somebody dun wan to meet me tml =(( lol

sentosa!!

2006-03-19T23:35:00.002+08:00

ytd went to sentosa.. sadly to say i was so tired tat i was slping most of the time.. zzzz.. under the sun.. thus the effect?? whole body red like lobster.. suffering.. wondering how to pass the next few days of work under the sun.. lol.. anywayz, took a few pics then realise my cam low batt so couldn't take more.. well i will upload watever i have n let fadz show the rest of the pics =))

well, dun ask me y i had tat grin on my face

apparently fadz had a sudden craving for the cuttelfish

theo gets influenced by fadz.. this is bad

theo goes missing n everyone is looking for him.. apparently it seems he's gone over the edge

theo had this look on his face.. i leave it to u to dechiper wat's on his mind

for those hu nv see my baby bro before

chalet anyone?

2006-03-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

okie.. for those hu dunno.. i'm already a 3rd SGT n officially can tekan ppl lol..
posted to NCC hq.. wtf.. chiong so much n get such a... lok cock posting.. zzz.. but nvm it's ok.. i've been doing nth but slping for the past few days.. i'm gonna be FAT..

anywayz, my purpose of this entry is to propose this.. i'm planning to have a chalet during my bdae tat period.. supposedly if nth goes wrong wif my offs etc.. i'm planning to have it from the 25th Nov - 27th Nov.. so it's a 3 days 2 night chalet.. i see no point in having a 2 days 1 night chalet as by the time u all reach already dunno wat time lol..

so anywayz, tat's my plan.. tentatively i shuld be paying for the whole chalet but i'll need those hu r coming to pay for the BBQ shuld there be one.. if not jus help me pay for like 20% for the chalet can already haha..

so i would appreciate if u can like tell me of any other stuffs tat can be done.. n also if u think u can come anot.. cos i dun wan last min then bk as it's school holidays period n everyone knows how hard is it to get a chalet then.. i plan to bk by july or august latest..

feel free to give me ideas.. i'm open to anything.. thanks!!

2006-01-30T07:43:00.000+08:00

been donkey yrs since i last updated..
nth much to say also..
jus wishing everyone a happy cny..
hope ur collections have been gd so far..
jus came back from jiovane hse..
went there wif ter loon n gang..
been long time since i saw all of them..
stupid thing that happen there is..
i helped terence gamble cos i didn't wan to use my own money..
he started me off wif $2..
end up i give him $50..
argh, y m i so stupid..
shuld have used my own money n i'll be $50 richer..
lol.. going to taiwan on the coming sat..
for 19days i suppose..
had the gathering on last fri..
didn't went as well as i wanted it to be..
but then again, it's not i wun see them again..
it's jus hard to get everyone together..
well, later need to meet fadz to get the snow cap..
so gonna slp now.. ciaoz..

it's been awhile yeah?

2006-01-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

it's been bout a week plus plus since i last updated.. due to no time as i had to stay in camp last week to do smth.. this week then bk out haha..

ytd i went to cine leisure.. dun really know y i go there also.. as fadz was watching movie wif sam at lido.. too bored perhaps.. anywayz, i met theo n wen yao there.. was hungry so we went to makan.. well, while eating, theo decided to confide in me abt stuffs tat was going on in his mind.. i would say he's oni confused at the moment.. i was suprised tat theo wanted to confide in me.. as i tot tat i was jus a normal frend to him as u all know la.. i'm always not ard.. haha.. after a session of counselling (or was it scolding??) wif me n wen yao to theo.. we went back to arcade to look for fadz.. played a game of pool wif fadz.. i think i lost haha.. shuld be la i so lousy anywayz..

wanted to head over to parklane as quite boring in cine.. they said ok la so i waited.. i think i waited abt 45mins?? before i got abit pissed as they were doing their own stuffs, taking their own time.. fadz understood n we went off alone first.. however i think this made samantha angry cos she suddenly sms fadz told him that she dun wan to go liaoz.. well, knowing fadz he would be abit distress tat kinda mood.. so apologises my man i didnt mean for it to turn it out tat way..

reached parklane, went to play game.. fadz nv played anything at all as i think he got no mood.. played till like 11.40 before rushing off to catch the last train.. but we failed.. missed by mere seconds.. haha.. so we tot take NR home la but since NR ends so late y not stay outside longer.. went back to parklane to find eric n the rest.. played pool.. i oni played one game then i went outside wif wen yao to look for theo.. well, we scared he fainted outside or smth as he was so god damn hungry yet he's still damn resilent refusing my offer of makan to him.. lol..

after awhile the rest came out as they sian of playing pool liaoz.. we went to kopitiam as some was hungry.. sat there talk cock session for awhile till i cannot take it n fell asleep.. haha.. dunno wat the rest were doing when i was slping ba.. but in my mind i was thinking, i missed this kinda of life.. simple, no worries, no commitments.. jus being able to go where ever i wan n watever i wan to do..

there's always the need to go back in time, to fix watever mistake, but dun have the chance to.. haiz..

when they leaving tat time they woke me up.. somehow i woke up feeling abit sore n i almost snapped.. haha.. lucky i nv sia.. walked all the way back to cine cos tat's the nearest bus stop.. lame sia.. NR3 came first so as i bidded the rest gdbye, a million of tots n regrets was going thru my head.. my bus finally came, slpt all the way.. reached home, had a nice hot shower n slpt..

booking in again today.. having this forever sick feeling tat will nv go off whenever i have to book in.. lucky this time oni for 4 days.. tentatively i shuld be coming out on thurs nite but i think most prob is fri morninig if i understand my coy. well.. fri is the gathering day.. those hu i wanted to go would have known the time n place by now.. i didn't call many ppl go.. jus those really close to me.. =)
reason for gathering is tat i jus wanted to see all of them before i fly off.. not forever but still it's damn long.. haha..

CNY coming liaoz.. every yr i think abt this day.. feels me wif sad feelings..

wish i could turn back time
return to where things were so simple then
no worries, no trouble
jus being happy all the time
dun wana grow up
not being able to enjoy myself
for taking away all of this
all i ask, i jus to give me a simple life
where me n my buddies will be happy

time.. is precious..

2006-01-10T17:51:00.000+08:00

first of all, let me wish victor toh a happy birthday.. well.. i noe i'm one day late but at least i rmb haha.. knw this fellow for like 5 - 6 yrs i suppose.. since ginza days.. street soccer days.. nice fellow to be wif.. head butting fellow.. fadz, tat mus have hurt then..

been thinking abt my time as usual.. was thinking of starting a photo album of me every yr.. at least 10yrs down the rd i still could see who or wat i was doing back then.. haha.. abit too late to start but then again, betta late then nv.. i'm gonna start wif those closest to me eg: fadz, ting, peiyu etc..

well, it seems tat everything turns out to be all right in the end.. glad he sorted it out with the various ppl n everything back to normal.. or so it seems.. hate to see this happen to one of us, after a series of recent events.. being locked out of the grp.. but then again, if u ask me.. i would say tat person is asking for it.. but still abit sad la..

chinese new yr is coming.. many ppl sure look forward to it as it's a time of gathering, collecting money etc.. i too would normally look forward to it.. but not this yr.. as i'll be going overseas for 1mth after cny.. for training.. damn i dun wan to leave sg sia.. i 5.5 days in camp already can die.. ask me away from everyone for 1mth.. hai.. i dunno wat i'll do sia.. lol.. tat's when the first few pics gonna come in handy..

well, in regards to my depature for the 1 mth.. i'm thinking of asking everyone out for makan in 2 weeks time.. at bukit timah al-ameen.. shuld be my treat ba.. but i wun be asking too many ppl so sorry if i nv invite ya..

*conflict sia.. cheryl or ting..*

Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length

2006-01-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

i ask my love
to take a walk
to take a walk
down orchard rd
bypass mandarin
to centerpoint
we had our lunch
at macdonalds
we had fillet
and a apple pie
we shared a cup
of lemon lime
i hold her hand
look into her eyes
i ask her to
be my valentine
there was one night
there was no light
there was no light
so i used torchlight
in the clear moonlight
looked into her eyes
i asked her to
be my future wife
but she rejected me
she turn me down
she turn her head
and said goodbye
oh my darling
now that you have gone
i end this song
a sad sad song
oh my darling
now that you have gone
i'll end this song
a sad sad song..

thus begins a new yr

2006-01-02T16:17:00.000+08:00

first of all, i would like to wish everyone a happy new yr.. hope tat everyone will have a gd time this yr as compared to the last.. had no new yr resolutions.. nv had any all this while anywayz..

let's start on sat.. well, i booked out from camp early morning.. reached home played dota wif my bunk mates.. played 2 games oni then i went to meet my dad to help him buy groceries etc.. abt 3plus i went to meet fadz at BG mrt station to go town.. reached somerset mrt, wanting to go cine but happens to have heavy rain at tat time.. so we decided to go to ps to chill out there for awhile.. headed to ps lvl 7 arcade, played a few games there before walking over to cine.. at cine was considered the most boring part of my day as i was pratically doing nth, as if i'm waiting for death to come like tat.. so i rotted wif fadz until abt 12 plus, when eric n karen came by.. we all decided to go to bukit timah to play pool.. played till abt 3 plus then we went to al-la meen (duno how to spell) to eat.. after tat they waited for the first bus.. fadz got to noe tat samantha was drunk n staying over at ryan place.. so, he wanted to go to hougang the first thing the morning n fetch her.. i actually wanted to follow him.. but the ZZZ monster overcomed me, despite trying to fight it wif the best of my abilities..

so sorry man

spend new yr day n today resting at home.. i wanted to go meet fadz ytd but didn't make it.. cos too late also.. haha.. got updated abt the things tat happen over there but i'm not going to talk abt it.. all i can say is;

"fadz, u're such a foolish person man"

*continuation from prev. entry*
well, it seems tat things have taken for the worst.. but as i said i'm going to follow him.. it's on my own accord btw.. so dun say tat he instigated me to follow him..

i choose to follow him..

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

going on seperate ways

2005-12-26T11:49:00.000+08:00

this yr christmas wasnt as nice as last yr one.. there was no energy seen as many things happen.. time has come for us to move on i suppose.. god knows where we will land up this time..

he is in some kind of a confused/lost state recently.. i can understand wat he is going thru.. i respect the decision he made.. i dun see y others can't.. due to this the link that binds us n another is streched.. any more n it will break.. thus we decided to go on a long holiday first.. seeing whether the link will mend or it will stay that way..

i'm not sad for doing it as well.. i'm not close to anyone there.. i simply can't be bothered abt ppl hu dun understand y things turn out to be this way n keep on bothering him abt it.. well, as i said, it's not the first time we will be moving on..

u all can ask me y m i following him.. i will jus give a smile n walk off.. there's no reason for this kinda things.. i'm simply following the only person which has made the most impact in my life.. there's no way to break our link.. unless it's death..

i'll guess we'll end up wif P.C.C.. but then again.. i'll jus leave it to FATE to open up my path in life for us..

another sunday

2005-12-11T16:42:00.000+08:00

well it's sunday again.. time really flies when i'm at home i guess haha.. well.. another 78 more sundays before i ORD.. LOL

suprising although i went out ytd earlier then usual i felt tat i spend quite little time wif the rest.. maybe cos i nv go home wif them n also when i meet them i was playing game alone.. so it feels more like going out alone.. i dunno y i jus had the urge to play games suddenly.. the gamer in me coming back up?? no.. i wun allow it to happen.. time could be betta used then playing games..

anywayz, i ytd went to cineleisure (where else) to meet fadz n the gang.. reach there abt 5 plus cos i left hse late.. duno y i so slow also.. reached there played pool.. ok la.. i still can play haha.. not so gd as before la.. they wanted to go to ps after tat so i went wif them.. kinda hate walking to ps not becos of the distance.. is becos tat they will have their own ppl to talk to n me will be like walking like a zombie going to ps.. haha.. when reach ps i tried to play kof.. but lose like fark.. lol.. really no experience in the game..

ryan came after tat, meeting me to go parklane.. actually i was kinda half hearted to go cos i didn't wan to seperate from the ppl i get to see oni once a week.. but i didn't wan to bubble him anywayz so i decided ok la let's go parklane.. go there pak game till bout 11plus then headed home.. nth much also la.. really not much interest in arcade anymore haha..

i realise y i enjoy the company of the cine gang although i nv really talk to much wif them.. it's cos i mon-fri will be alone in army.. alone in the sense tat now most of my bunk mates are always busy doing their own stuffs.. then i'll be on my bed thinking of wat to do.. sometimes i call ppl but they also busy so i dun wan to disturb them.. ended up i jus lying there rotting to death.. haha..

I WAN MY GOD DAMN FREEDOM!!! Y IS NS TAKING WAT I VALUE THE MOST FROM ME!!
I DUN EVEN HAVE THE TIME TO SPEND TIME WIF MY FAMILY LET ALONE FRIENDS!!

sorry abt tat.. haha..

i was thinking of the more happier times in ginza when i had no problems, everything was simple then.. then i rmb smth stupid.. there was this time where the EO gang wanted to have a chalet.. so me n fadz, after being forced to, decided to take up the job of planning one.. we did actually plan the chalet.. plan for like few mths like tat haha.. then for god noes wat reason also suddenly we nv proceed on wif the plans.. if the chalet did happen it would be enjoyable i suppose.. i rmb we had like 10+ ppl going haha.. now.. everyone has gone their own ways wif the exception of fadz, ryan n peiyu.. to have a chalet wif everyone around will be impossible..

another stupid thing is tat i kinda rmb.. me, peiyu, huat and fadz made a pact to meet 10yrs later at ET if we were to seperate our ways.. looking at it.. will there even be ET in 10yrs time?? n i doubt they rmb it haha.. i also forgot..

PS: ze suan.. i didn't noe my sms didn't get through on ur bdae.. haha.. so here's a happy belated wish for ya.. betta late then nv rite??

Life is just one damned thing after another.

Memories

2005-12-04T03:48:00.000+08:00

today was quite a nice day.. mainly cos i was reminded of so many gd memories..

i went out to meet fadz n the rest at cine.. went to play pool for awhile.. well, as usual the off - form me lost.. but when i lost to kelvin/calvin (dunno how to spell).. tat fellow ego actually got betta of him.. he was saying stuffs like i shuld retire n let the new generation take over.. wtf.. dun let me get back my form.. i'll make sure he dun have a chance to hit the ball..

anywayz, we went off to ps after tat.. went to play game.. tried to play rock fever.. haha i sucks in it already.. kof also.. play 2 tokens oni win 1 time lo.. so unlike of me.. cannot make it liaoz.. left ps at ard 10 like tat.. took bus.. change of routine ba.. everytime take mrt also sian..

well it was on the bus tat somehow me n fadz talk until reach our secondary school days.. all the gd n bad we did (mostly bad la) lol.. stuffs like NACLI Camp ghost hand, stone cake, catching, ginza.. brings a smile to me when i think abt it.. the most stupid mus be when me n fadz got a 1 mark improvement in maths, we were so happy tat ppl tot we pass our maths.. lol.. it was from 24/100 to 25/100.. haha.. but to us it was an achievement as our maths really suck to the core.. lol..

wat bothering me until now is i can't rmb hu's sitting beside me.. for some stupid reason i have no memory at all.. fadz also dun rmb.. u see our sitting arrangement was like a square.. 3 ppl by 3 ppl.. so i can rmb 8 ppl including myself n fadz.. then somehow the both of us forgot hu was sitting on the same row as us.. tat fellow mus be damn quite for us to actually forget lol..

to cheryl: hey gal, sorry for forgetting to call u today.. cos in the morning 6 plus u told me u haven't slp.. then when u went to slp i didn't wan to disturb u.. i was thinking tat u slp very long one.. hu noes u wake up so early.. then waiting for me to call.. sorry k?? let's meet up next week kk??

P.S: cherie then u also dunno how to call me la!! wait for me call.. become my fault liaoz =X lol i'm j/k okie.. wat i said above was true n this paragraph is totally fake..

today's quote is the courtesy of cheryl
(kapo from her nick lol.. got ask for permission hor..)

and when im gone, just carry on. don't mourn, rejoice.

Time Really Flies

2005-12-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

well, 2 days of OFF has pass for me.. still wondering y time comes to a crawl when i'm in camp but blazes off when i'm outta camp.. haha.. stupid rite??

sorry to ryan for not meeting him today.. kinda feel like i last min pang seh u.. sorry man..

tues nite wen long came over to ton at my place.. to play game.. haha.. my com installed too many games already.. have to delete some next time.. running out of space..

wed went to meet huiting n cecilia at clementi.. wen long kanna dragged by me lol.. we had lunch at the market there.. it's been a long time since i last eaten there.. went to queensway to play dota.. all thanks to cecilia idea.. lol.. i kinda feel tat i m bullying them.. i shuld 1 vs 3 of them next time haha..

today nv do anything much.. mostly preparing to go back camp tml.. i moved camp alraedy.. no more tekong.. finally!! no need to leave hse at 8 plus oni to reach there at 11 plus.. haha.. now i'm located near boon lay.. hope the travelling time is not so bad..

hoping tat i'll book out tml nite.. still not sure whether is it tml nite or sat afternoon.. hope is not the later.. i wan to go out this weekend n lose myself =X

cat finally came back from UK.. she bought lots n lots of cookies for me.. damn i'm gonna be fat.. -_-"

I tend to live in the past because most of my life is there.

2005-11-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

well, i'm finally 20yrs old.. not tat i wan to be 20yrs old.. but the time has finally come for me to say gd bye to my teenage yrs..

didn't celebrate much.. gotta thank those hu came n waited for me cos i took so damn long to reach home n rush back down.. damn sad man on my bdae i found out i book out at 5pm.. lol.. i oni reach home at 7plus.. haiz..

THANKS TO:
Fadz
Ryan
Peiyu
Cecilia
Cheryl
Wenlong
Victor
Kelvin
Tiffany
Wei Zhong
Wen Chong
Sebastion

yeah it's was a short bdae celebration.. i kinda felt stressful so i went to drink one can of tiger.. so unlike me to feel lost after one can.. lol.. but it's gd at least i can no longer hold it anymore.. so i no need buy so many ma.. haha.. took quite a no. of pics wif the ppl.. gonna upload it when fadz finally send me.. which is dunno when..

supposed to meet huiting today.. but i was kinda lazy n it's late already.. i also dunno wan to do wat.. it was abt 6pm already.. so sian la.. i told her i would meet her some other time.. sorry huiting..

getting sick of army life.. when wan to enjoy they dun give u the freedom to.. well i noe i'm jus making noise as dunno how many ppl went thru this feeling before me.. jus love my freedom haha..

i wan to go sentosa.. but always no time one.. book out so late where got time go down.. by the time i go down they go off liaoz la.. haha.. sad manz..

I don't necessarily agree with everything I say

2005-11-20T19:02:00.000+08:00

it's been some time since i last touched this stupid blog.. basically i'll jus summarise abt wat happen in the past few days..

I'm probably gonna get stuck wif the PIC for the rest of my life

I look like a squirrel??

Got my coporal rank already

Everyone knows I m fat before thanks to the TAPE

My hair is still short

My bdae is coming

haha.. tat's all ba.. hmm i realise i've become abit more unfriendly liaoz.. unfriendly in a way tat i nv really go n talk much to ppl anymore.. last time when i meet new ppl i would be talking to them alot but recently i have jus been keeping to myself oni replying when needed.. eg. to shawn n edison.. well, at least i'm still my crappy self.. kinda miss the times when i can go out so often lol.. but now cannot leh.. even wan to go out also mus think think abit.. but at least i enjoyed my time outside ytd.. catching up wif the rest jus feel so nice..

my CS skills r still there at least.. the CS chiongsua team consist of me, fadz, fajar n terence.. wif us ard.. all u campers can forget abt camping lol.. really had fun playing LAN after such a long time.. really shuld get playing more often lol..

cat got into an accident on fri.. luckily she was not injured.. but now she has to pay the lady hu's car she knocked into.. i dunno how much is it, but it shuldn't be cheap since cat was so stressed out.. i really hope tat it will turn out fine for her.. i dunno y she also dun wan to tell me anything abt it.. =((

Friendship make prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it.

2005-11-05T18:42:00.001+08:00

jus reach home from sengkang.. went to visit my grandma jus now.. it's been a long time since i last saw her.. i kinda missed her alot.. u noe i realise one thing jus now.. abt how life is so fragile tat a single thing can be changed overnite.. well, for my case it's not overnite la but wat happen is tat i had this thinking last yr during hari raya i still saw my grandpa but this yr.. i dun see him anymore.. i almost cried jus now.. hai.. i dun wan my grandma to go either..

anywayz, nth much to update.. supposedly wanted to go out one.. then dunno y all the plans i had got cancelled one by one.. so i ended up.. at home again.. lol.. nvm ba..

some things abt KOF XI.. this pics are some of the teams endings.. some is quite funny.. the 2 endings i dun like is when iori got his flames stolen n ash actually have purple flames.. it's jus doesn't go wif ash..

ENDINGS:
Kyo, Iori, Shingo
Ash, Oswald, Shen
Benimaru, Duolon, Elizabeth
Ryo, Yuri, King
Eiji, Malin, Kasumi
Athena, Kensou, Momoko

Control your emotion or it will control you

2005-11-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

well, time flies very fast.. it's already the fourth day of my 5 days off.. sad.. past few days is mostly me going out all the time.. although i told myself before tat i would stay at home to acc. my parents whenever possible..

have i changed?? i dunno myself actually.. cat was saying i changed for the better, tat i'm growing up.. so does tat means i've been a little boy in my mind all this while?? haha.. i find tat i m still the same person.. loves to talk crap, jokes, play game.. no diff wat.. but i've no longer have tat drive to go out anymore.. i prefer to stay at home.. cos go out also duno wat to do n where to go.. really man, SG too small n nth to do one..

been making quite a no. of frends this few days.. mostly all from fadz side.. actually i feel kinda odd when i go out wif them cos like i dun really noe them.. haha.. i was quite happy to see the rest of the gang though.. afterall it's been like ages since i last saw them.. 6weeks to be exact..

i meet cat ytd.. it's been quite some time since i last saw her.. we had a long talk abt wat's been happening in our lifes.. it's quite nice to actually sit down n have a nice talk.. stupid fadz n ryan was making fun of me.. wif the PIC!! omg.. fadz has been like showing the PIC i took abt 6 weeks ago to the whole world.. WTF..

KOF XI is out already.. normally i would be very gian to go n play it.. but i dun really feel like playing it.. haha.. dunno y also.. the gamer in me dying??

Nothing is more painful than seeing the one u love, love someone else

2005-10-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

again it has been 2 weeks since i last touch this blog.. hai, i'm abt to book in liaoz.. this time book in for 13 days before can come out.. reason being is tat they wan to confine us to as to facilitate the point of time when we have depavali n hari raya together.. result of me being confine?? 3days off plus the 2 public holidays = 5days.. not so bad la i think..

okie, i have not been going out recently.. no reasons.. i oni went out to meet the peiyu, cherie n ceci.. have not been meeting fadz also.. i noe tat i've been missing out alot of things from fadz side but i dun really feel the need to go down till cine n do nth there.. actually i want to meet huiting also.. unfortunately my time is so limited outside tat i always have to choose whether i wanna go out or stay at home.. even if go out also mus choose hu to go wif.. basically i always choose pei, ceci n cher cos they r the closest gal pals in my life.. wif huiting also of cos.. but too bad la cher n huiting got conflict.. if not wun be so hard for me la haha..

haha i used to rmb wat huiting always tell me.. i'm a computer repair man lol.. cos com spoil oni all come look for me.. ceci n cher also looked for me abt their com but i got no time to go down n fix for them.. i was thinking of using one day of my five days off to go n help them.. well, although they were jus at my place ytd.. i start to miss them liaoz.. haha i also dunno y.. is the same as when i jus got into ns.. i miss all of them the most sia.. =))

anywayz, i needa some suggestion on wat to do on my bdae.. well, pei asked me to go zenzie n drink.. told me to make n exception ba.. cos oni once a yr.. but i really dun feel like drinking sia.. i dunno lo.. sg nth to do one..

to FADZ: hey bro, i suppose this is kinda the null period tat we have once in a while tat we dun meet each other for quite sometime.. i jus wan u to take care ba.. n dun always let the matters of the heart preoccupie ur mind..

to HUITING: hey, dun be sooooo sad la.. this kinda things is bo pian one.. rmb tat life always goes on no matter wat.. i can oni advice u but u r the one hu have control over those kinda feelings..

to P.C.C: hey gals, thanks for acc me ytd even though i felt like it's kinda boring.. nv do anything much.. ceci being the siao kia as always, cherie trying to entertain herself, n pei ended up slping all the way.. lol.. sorry.. see ya 2 weeks later.. ceci n cher, i'll contact ya abt ur coms.. also.. help me think of wat to do on my bdae lehz =)))

2005-10-02T14:34:00.000+08:00

haha.. looks like after a very very long time.. i'm going back to my old blogskin.. i think this is my second blogskin tat i done.. it's not really finished as i mostly forgot the codes to make my entries table wun be sooooo long.. n also i lost the backgrd pic i used in this layout..

the music also remains the same.. although it's been like 1yr since i last played this song.. i think some of u all might actually remember it.. due to the sad feeling this song gives u.. i dunno y also la but i like it alot.. haha..

second tat aside, i also forgot how to make the song repeat itself.. haha.. going to army really makes me from a layout pro to a layout dummy..

enuff abt the stupid skin, recently my life has been very simple ba i suppose.. i actually nv went out for 2 weekends already.. haha.. i can't believe it myself.. noeing me i always like to go out whenever i book out.. but somehow i dun have tat feeling anymore.. it's like i'm actually lazy to go out.. funny sia.. sure i miss the rest but i jus can't seem to get myself moving out of the hse once i come back.. maybe it's due to the fact tat i can oni reach home earliest at 3pm n it's like kinda late already.. not to mention some weeks i'll be booking out at evening time.. so like sucks.. really..

abt sispec.. i dun really noe wat to say abt it except it's like my BMT phase but oni this time it's alot harder.. etc: i'll be shag out by the end of every day.. even now as i'm typing this i can feel tat my arms n legs r still aching.. badly.. sometimes i jus wanna give up, but i can't.. maybe if i broke my leg or smth tat makes me no need go back camp for a long time then i sure OUT OF COURSE one.. but for something like tat to happen to me.. haha hard la..

2005-09-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

another week has pass in my life.. n sadly to say i kanna posted to sispec.. for those hu dunno wat it is.. well, is a sergeant course..

shuld i be proud tat i'm going there? since it's like everyone i knew hu went in earlier nv went to sispec.. but then, i dun feel that way.. reason being tat i wanted to slack.. slack as in being able to go home everyday n play wif my baby brother.. imagine my feelings when i heard my buddy got a 9-5 posting.. u noe how much i wan that.. i felt he's the one shuld get sergeant course.. he more chiong sua then me one leh.. but in the end, i got a course that is bound to make me away from home..

frankly speaking i also dunno how i can get gd impressions from my commanders.. is like, they need ppl to help them wif sai kang (volunteers), they will nv see me offering my help.. i was tat slack during bmt.. but somehow.. i mus have made a gd impression of myself that landed me up in sispec.. how i also dunno.. god help me la..

thinking of the brighter side of it, if i make it thru.. i will be a 3rd sergeant.. which means.. i can tekan ppl!! lol.. no la.. i not tat bad.. i believe tat next time whoever is under me sure will be very slack one.. reason being i can't see myself making ppl do push ups, sit ups etc.. also there's the higher pay.. i already quite poor so the extra money i get every mth as a sergeant will help me.. on the other hand even if i drop out of sispec i would be a corporal.. betta then private..

lol imagine if i see ryan or fadz after i become sergeant.. they will be recruits.. lol.. *-* i can pump them!! lol.. actually i dunno la.. if i ever see somebody i noe under me.. i wun noe wat to do leh.. cos i can't possibly be biase to them ma.. wun be fair to others.. lol.. i think when got smth to do i will be strict ba.. but when nth then i will slack wif them.. talk cock as usual..

i had this dreaded feeling for the whole day.. didn't realise wat was it until i sat n thought abt it after dinner.. i realise tat it was the same feeling that i got before i went in ns.. i'm suprised that i still have this feeling, since i didn't feel it for quite some time already.. i suspect is due to my little brother.. i quite fond of him..

hmm, i think i will be needing the support of u guys again.. especially those hu help me push on during bmt.. i really tot of u people alot n those nights when i talk to u guys always make me feel i can make it..

so i would like to thank these peoples that gave me support:

Fadz: hey bro, although u everytime curse me to go sispec, i noe u dun mean it.. well, it will be every sat meetings again man..

Ryan: u also another one, curse me go sispec.. lol.. but i noe u jus wan me to be happy wif watever i get.. which unfortunately didn't happen..

Huiting: half of the main pillar that support me during bmt.. always complain i nv call her n talk one when she also nv call me.. lol..

Peiyu: the other half of the main pillar.. she will be listening whenever i complain abt army haha.. even though i think it bores her to death.. except for ghost stories..

Cecilia: haha i dunno y whenever i think of slacking i will think of u.. maybe cos u always call me go out have fun one lol..

Cheryl: to a lesser extend u did help me also.. although u might not realise it.. so thanks..

Catherine: my sms kaki, always telling to be a family man n serve the nation at the same time.. which i think i cannot do lol.. i not meant to be multi tasking..
(if i left anyone out, i'm sorry man)

so those names that r listed out here.. u can expect my calls from tml onwards for the next 5mths lol.. (wif exception of cat.. u will be receiving my sms lol)

i dunno when is my book out sia.. hope is the coming sat.. i dun wan to stay in for 2 weeks again la.. farking boring one.. =)) anywayz, see u all when i book out.. er, not all la but at least some.. cos it's hard to get everyone together haha..

2005-09-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.. my baby bro has been born!!! god i m so happy.. my past few days have been revolving ard him.. see him so cute.. one thing i dun like though is tat he cries alot.. lol.. but i suppose tat's pretty normal in newborn babies.. lol.. he's very cute in my eyes.. lol.. i would love to upload a photo of him but i dunno y phone the mms is not working so i can't send to my email.. haha.. got time u guys come over la haha.. BABY!!!

one sad news..... baby name is Ryan Mah Yong Guang... Y!! of all the names y RYAN!!!!! lol.. tat's all...

2005-09-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

well, i finally finished my BMT.. which is Basic Millitary Training.. supposedly i'm m a trained soldier but i still think tat i'm the same old me.. u noe, when war comes i'll be the first to run off to save my love ones instead of dying for singapore.. haha.. there's no way u will ever see me say "CHIONG AR" to the front.. maybe to the back have la..

so anywayz, while awaiting for my posting, i realise tat i was unsure of myself during BMT.. is like u see, i could have chiong all the way, but for some reason i slacked there.. but while slacking, i actually did the minimum required stuffs to qualify for command school.. so this is where the stupid thing start.. is like i wan to go to command school for the money.. but at the same time i dun wan to chiong.. but if i slack, i wun have so much money.. so.. wat the hell, i jus went n did the minimum to go to command school and i leave it to luck lo..

now is my 12 days off, well, left 10 lah if minus today.. so like during this period of time.. i scared i will adjust back to civilian life and when my leave ends, i would dun wan to go back to where ever i'm posted to.. AWOL ba haha.. mus get tips from my company storeman.. he AWOL for so long wifout getting caught.. and he's damn big size.. u noe, big as in fat.. if he ever went for 2.4km run he oni need to run 400m n his stomach will reach the end point.. somewhere ard tat line la.. eh, dun ask me wat's AWOL meaning, i forgot at the moment.. i oni noe is Absent Without (something) (something)

so anywayz, i'm gonna enjoy myself during my off.. well, tat's wat i said to myself but my past 2 days have been quite boring to me.. reason being no money, singapore to small, sian of this sian of that, bla bla bla n so on.. it's kinda stupid, when i'm inside i will miss singapore.. but now when i come out i feel bored.. but well, anything beats being in camp haha..

i'm gonna miss my time in BMT.. taken from WHISKEY company profile, a platoon mate of mine created a account in friendster lol..

Hometown:
Singapore.. then we shifted overseas to tekong

Schools (Other):
Bmtc School 2 !

Occupation:
sai kang, system testers,target for verbal insults

Companies:
Not Volka, Not johnny walkers but WHISKEY!

Affiliations:
School of saikang warriors; School of Fine Wayang Arts; Rahiyan School of Verbal communiations; Sg Ng School of Slacking; International Jethro Cocking assosiation

Hobbies and Interests:
touch backside, sleep walk, doing guard duty(this is one of our favourites!), jumping jacks, crunches, push ups, running around the red track after testing the system, making noise when we are suppose to sing song, moving slowly to encourage our commanders to do their jobs more.

Favorite Books:
Confinement book, armskote book, Extra book, Lost item book, book-in book-out Book, if possible the DB book!

Favorite Movies:
anything other then patriotic videos will do. Porn is a must!(you think i care?)

Favorite Music:
anything other then early morning, afternoon and evening anthems. recorded clips of commanders using exciplits on us(for motivation purposes)

Favorite TV Shows:
live stage performerances, perferably with chio bus, no Lcb pls..
About Me:
we are a band of special soldiers... CRAP! we are a bunch of mofos who loves to get back to mainland in 2 years time.. our favourite collectables are limited edition pink cards with our faces on it. we are trained in performing ancient arts such as wayang and imitating a bull working in the field. we are not self centered but neither are we v united, so that makes us normal. we always pa siao, yep! wat u dun see doesn't mean it nv happened.. er herm! we love to test the systems and try to exploit as much as possible, of course we are always ready for the repercussions and u think we care?

*end of profile*
of cos all this crap got smth to do of the stuffs happens in BMT.. haha, reading this brings back alot of memories.. some gd some bad but still memories for life =)

PICS

2005-08-28T13:52:00.000+08:00

haiz, this week dun really have much time to enjoy myself cos i kanna a late bookout.. actually is confinement one then i go n do alot of sai kang then can come out earlier..

so but anywayz, i oni came out at 5pm ytd.. n reach home at 7pm.. so after all the usual stuffs which i need to do at home eg: makan, wash dirty clothings.. i went out to bukit timah there to meet the rest.. as usual i was jus there to relac as watch soccer.. tried to play pool twice but lost as usual.. keep on deproving dunno y also.. maybe due to the fact i oni play once a week.. haha.. hmm after tat jus went home n slp lo.. nth much la basically.. i actually wanted to stay at home n rest one then tat stupid fadz drag me out.. then i reach there liaoz awhile later fadz fell asleep.. tat stupid ass..

hmm, my passing out parade is coming soon.. 6sept (tues) afternoon.. currently i oni got 2 tickets.. anybody wanna come?? i can get more tickets.. for those ppl hu nv been to pulau tekong before haha..

2005-08-21T09:35:00.000+08:00

yo ppl, i guess it's time i try to update my blog whenever it is possible since i think i have been neglecting it for a long time already.. no time la..

ytd went to meet jernan at bugis.. supposed to meet her at 1plus but i late until 2plus.. so after tat we went to play arcade.. well, mainly is jus me watching her play para para.. soon after pearl came down.. n both started to play para para so i went to play some other games since got ppl acc jernan.. tried to play rock fever but realised how badly i suck in it already since i cannot pass those songs i had confidence in.. waste money sia keep on dying.. so, after tat we decided to head down to cine.. then jernan wanted to take bus cos she didn't want to take mrt but couldn't rmb the bus stop at where.. so we walked one whole big rd ard bugis n still she couldn't rmb where.. so end up still take mrt.. lol.. meet up wif lincoln at cine.. soon after, the rest came.. as usual i watched them play para para while i basically jus rot there.. had a few games of pool but i realised how much i deprove in tat also.. jialat sia.. pei n cherie dropped by quite late in the evening.. went to tcc cafe cos dunno wat the hell was the rest doing there also.. ordered one cup of oreo milkshake.. so ex sia.. forgot to take the menu price n + 15%.. n i didn't even get to eat the oreo.. those 2 kapo my oreo.. so anywayz, at nite we went to lincoln's cafe.. wat kinda cafe opens till 1am?? lol.. there we jus played pool while watching soccer.. it's been such a long time since i watched soccer.. after tat went home n slp lorz..

hai, jernan scare me wif something she said then i told her smth which i didn't intend to tell her one.. jialat how sia..

[lost]

2005-08-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

hai, i dunno wat to say sia.. my life is going downhill for the moment.. alot of sad and fustrating things happen to me..

eg: i lost my digicam and my only grandpa passed away this afternoon

i really feel lost right now.. i jus feel like ending it now.. u noe, so tat i wun be so troubled anymore.. i hate this feeling..

2005-07-24T14:59:00.000+08:00

ok, i noe i very long nv update.. well, is jus tat i dun really have much time n i really have nth much to update abt.. cos ns is all abt training, survival in jungles, shooting etc.. also due to the fact i oni book out on sat afternoon.. watever i wanted to write also i would have forgotten already.. ok enuff abt tat.. well i'm jus finish my 6th week of BMT.. left 7 more weeks before i finish.. i myself have experience alot of changes to my life in army.. like how i mus share toilet wif others, understand my bunk mates n their patterns.. it's really interesting.. it's jus like going to a new school n getting to noe new people except wif a few other things..

physically i can tell i can grown stronger.. many stuffs which i can't do before i can do betta now.. but mentally, well, tat's a different thing.. i admit i m mentally weak.. i always look forward to bookout everytime i book in..

the thing is, i always miss my parents the most.. cos i'm quite close to them so i really miss them alot when given the time to reflect back.. when i reflect back i realise tat i didn't spend much time wif them.. i'm always out wif my friends or at home playing com.. i knew tat my dad put in alot of effort for me.. n i mus say i admire him so for it.. it's not easy to bring up 2 children alone.. when i was small, i used to reject him when he talked abt remarrying.. i was selfish.. when i came to poly i guess i mus have changed alot cos when my dad wanted to marry my current mom, i didn't object at all.. in fact i kinda supported him.. over time, i knew y i support him, it's becos tat he's been alone for so long.. me n my sis grown up n always not at home.. then he always one person at home.. so i felt it would be rite to have him to have his own companion.. abt my mom, i love her alot also, due to the little things she do for me everyday even though we nv talk much due to the communication barrier.. i'm really happy tat my dad has found his companion.. my mom giving birth in sept.. a boy.. well, how do i say it.. i gonna have a little brother.. i will be there when she give birth no matter wat..

ok, come to my friends.. i got quite a few no. of close friends.. closest to me are ting, peiyu n fadz.. i've known them for a long period of time n they understand me alot.. of cos i have other gd frends such as my poly classmates n cine gang etc.. they always make my day no matter wat.. well, in army u wun really miss friends that much.. y i also dunno la.. however, if there is a ger u like in ur heart.. tat's when suffer.. i always think abt her.. abt wat she's doing, whether she's ok anot.. it's hard.. i got call her every now n then.. u noe jus to hear her voice.. really miss her alot when in camp.. but wat to do.. no choice la.. anywayz, ting n pei will auto be my little bro "sisters".. so yeah, u 2 have another brother now.. n ting, dun worry la i wun die to some little sickness.. i noe u r very concern abt me.. but i told u before, i wan to die i wun die inside one.. there's still alot of things i wan to do wif my life..

well, i gonna quit drinking.. it's very very EX to drink sia.. next time i jus gonna go to pub n jus relax.. no point la drink then feel high for awhile, next day feel like crap.. actually depends la.. if close friends ask me to drink then i will drink abit la.. no money sia.. my ns pay like crap also one.. oni $350.. minus off $100 i give my parents i oni left $250.. so cannot la mus survive wif this money..

**i always loved u for wat u r, it's jus tat u dun realise it. i always wanted to hold u in my arms n tell u how much i love u but didn't have the courage to. i dreamt of u lying in my arms but when i wake up, i found nth but tears in my eyes**

I LOVE YOU

2005-07-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

kkz, time to update abit abt wat's happening inside..

mon

sianz, i was feeling low cos that my weekend was so short.. so i was kinda sad when i had to book in back.. had str training n 15min nonstop run.. so shag.. food at the cookhse get to start repetive, always same old thing.. the training starting to get more n more shiong.. dunno can tahan anot.. well, book out is on sat afternoon.. so sian..

tues

0515 - wake up
0545 - fall in for 5bx
0615 - breakfast
0700 - 15 min nonstop run (sianz so early run like dog)
0900 - admin time (SLP!!)
1130 - lunch (abt time hungry liaoz)
1215 - admin time (was playing chinese chess n DUM)
1415 - fall in to check field pack for route march
1500 - start of route march, 3km (farking hell my back almost broker during the walk cos the bloody field pack + rifle + webbing + helmet = 20kg)
1730 - dinner
1800 - admin time
2000 - canteen break (i love this, i jus chiong there n play game haha)
2145 - wash up, called peiyu
2230 - slp

wed

nth much to say cos the whole day was admin time.. gotta be the most slackest day in the entire army life.. till the time i ORD also wun find another slack day like this..

thurs

another shiong day, got 2.4km run.. my timing improve by 2 mins.. happy sia.. after tat got first aid lesson, mus learn alot of stuffs cos got test.. after lunch was another str training.. so shag till no appetite to eat during dinner.. at nite had another insurance talk.. boring..

fri

this day stand like stupid idiots like tat.. first was the SAF day parade.. tat one stand for like 1hr.. then got rifle presentation, tat one more worse i think abt 2hrs.. my leg was so suan after tat.. had arms drill.. hard to follow the steps but when can do liaoz it's start to get quite fun.. had another str training today.. sibei sibei tired.. talked to jernan at nite.. nth much jus talk crap oni..

sat

well, morning had another 15min non stop run.. hai.. lucky book out was at 1100.. so not so bad la.. so i tot wan to take cab go back.. end up wait for cab for so long, tat when i reach home tat time i felt tat i could have jus take mrt n reach home abt the same time.. waste money somemore take cab.. next time take mrt liaoz..

when to meet the gang at abt 3 plus.. went to watch war of the worlds thanks to lincoln hu made it for us FOC.. the show.. alrite oni ba.. for those hu nv watch i wouldn;t spoil it for u all, but i can oni say tat i would not recommend it.. plyed abit of arcade n pool after tat.. suprisingly my skills in pool are still there even though it has been abt 3 weeks - 1mth since i last played it.. won fadz 2 times i think..

theo said smth very stupid tat made me, fadz n ryan laugh like hell.. for more info pls refer to fadz blog.. no time to type out busy..

SUN

sianz, got tat sad feeling again, not so bad this time though, i jus had to keep telling my self the more i feel like this the more closer to finishing BMT.. 10 more weeks to go.. still quite long eh.. went beach rd to buy some stuffs.. forget to buy pen again.. wtf.. lol.. kkz la i gtg prepare my stuffs for later book in.. take care peeps..

2005-06-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

well, abt time for me to go back into camp.. got a sad kinda feeling n i'm sure i'm not the oni one hu feel like this abt going back to camp.. i had a really great day at sentosa ytd.. thanks to fadz hu actually took time to plan this out.. so peeps out there, take care till i come out on sat again.. ciaoz..

2005-06-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

well, for those hu's wonder wat i look like after i go in.. here it is.. taken wif my best friends..

2005-06-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

ok.. i'm back after like 15days in camp.. so time to update watever i have written in my journal in camp..

10/06/05

today go ns, actually i was feeling very low.. due to alot of things.. miss pei, cher, ceci n ting.. no reasons y.. the tot of them makes me feel even more depress. got to noe 2 buddies.. willam n sathis.. we 3 are to be buddies for the 13 weeks.. got to know them, quite friendly people.. called pei, poured my woes to her.. my hair, less then 1cm. save shampoo. Dickson n Elvin also same platoon as me.. too bad got wengkin one but he move to other platoon.. well, 14 more days to go..

11/06/05

no excersize today, saw jason during breakfast today.. now at lecture, it seems tat i m in a leadership batch, so most of us will go to commando.. sathis could not slp last nite.. new environment i suppose.. changed my mindset, instead of feeling down n missing them, i now think that when i come out i can see them, so i mus chiong to that point. Talked to pei, cher n ceci in the afternoon n nite was ting.. ok la i starting to get used to it, no point whining abt it rite..

12/06/05

i woke up late, not late for training but i woke up at 5.15 instead of 5.00, so no time to shower. there was a lecture but everyone was slping including me.. during marching got one person sabo the whole platoon but i'm not going to dwell into it.. after lunch, i tried on my webbing.. stupid games said i look like RAMBO lol.. then another lecture.. again feel like slping.. always the same thing one leh dunno y also..

14/06/05

wah, my arms are aching.. due to the push ups n pull ups.. well, not alot but due to my unfit status.. but so far ok la, although i'm tired + sian + low morale.. nvm think of them can liaoz lol.. morning was 5BX followed by breakfast then strength training lecture.. i see the steps involved in it i sianz liaoz.. physically demanding + see my pattern = GG.. currently nuaing while waiting for lunch.. went to gym in the afternoon.. at nite there was some insurance talk.. wan to physco us to buy insurance but i nv buy.. first time wear smart 4 today.. look kinda nice lol..

15/06/05

as usual i woke up at abt 5.20 n oni have time to brush teeth.. had 5bx again wif run.. for those hu dunno wat's 5bx is.. it is 5 basic excersize that consists of jumping jack, sit ups, push ups n 2 more i forget liaoz lol.. push up is the most shit one in my point of view.. hand always cannot tahan.. then run for abt 1.2km. damn tired.. slacked from morning to afternoon then got training.. cb the warm up is more shiong then the main excersize.. after warm up i'll be like dying liaoz.. so + the main excersize n the cool down part = dead.. awhile later, did pull up.. cannot do at all cos arm aching.. had dinner followed by another lecture.. again i was slping.. cleaned up my stupid cupboard.. neat already.. gonna call cherie before i slp..

17/06/05

today got PT CAT Test.. same as NAFPA test minus the sit n reach.. farking hell i failed every single one of them.. including my sit ups cos my stomach pain.. maybe muscle fatigue.. morale drop until undergrd liaoz.. hai.. gonna cut on my food intake.. 2 lectures in the afternoon.. jus now had to do smth but our bunk the ppl all slping where other bunk was busy doing tat stuff.. so later gonna be very busy.. at nite again lecture.. aircon makes me slpy sia.. damn.. lectures day i suppose.. kinda remind me of poly =((

19/06/05

No time to update cos was busy lately.. there was many checks on my bunk cleanliness.. then marching aka foot drill for the whole afternoon.. farking tired.. wanted to talk to cherie but she told me her grandpa passed away n she dun feel like talking.. felt sorry for her as i noe she loves her grandpa alot.. but i nv console her as i didn't noe wat to say.. fast forward to this moment.. had route march in the morning.. then was cleaning bunk again.. sianz later mus run for 15 mins non-stop.. dunno can tahan anot..

*few hrs later*

phew shagged out, almost gave up during the run but somehow i managed to make it.. haha i write so many crap here dunno i got time to type out into my blog anot.. anywayz mus memorise 8 songs for route march.. hai next week got alot of physical training.. gonna tahan for 5 more days.. anywayz, might not be updating anymore cos pen is running out of ink.. well hope i got time to update this shit into my blog or i mus ask ting to help me do liaoz.. =XX

23/06/05

TML BOOK OUT!!! but at 6.45pm sianz.. long mrt journey dunno wat time i will reach home.. gonna stop here cos really no ink liaoz..

2005-06-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

this is it.. i'm will be reporting to tekong in abt 8hrs time.. so peeps, take care of urselfs.. tat's it.. bye.. =))

2005-06-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

hmm today nth much ba.. i actually slpt until 3 plus in the afternoon.. then was kinda staring at the com doing nth until 5 plus.. called fadz, ask him whether he got go et anot.. he told me he already there so i jus headed down there lo.. played exactly for 1hr, before closing n watching the rest play.. well, we headed to lot 1 after tat.. n i can't believe tat theo wore snow white n seven dwarfs shirt.. i was like.. er.. do i noe u.. tat kinda pattern lol.. well, go lot 1 to rot ard there for awhile before heading back home.. jus reach home then blog lo, going to help huiting fix her tag board.. but first, i wanna eat.. i whole day haven't eat anything.. sounds like i'm on a diet lol..

2005-06-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

hmm, i jus reached home from partyworld.. n i jus realise i spent more then $100 this whole week.. wow.. mon - wed was nth much leh i think.. i think due to the excessive amt of dota wif cecilia, pei n ting.. die.. haha i can't believe i went to ktv 2 time this week.. once on thrus n jus now.. no wonder i spent so much.. 4 more days to go.. been hanging out wif pei, ceci n ting for the past few days..

List of ppl i wanna meet by thurs
1.) Mich - to borrow her hp n if possible a fm transceiver
2.) Ting n Pei - well, this 2 no need explanation ba
3.) Colyn - she said she wanted to meet me before i go in, i kinda miss her 2
4.) Fadz - to talk crap ?????
5.) Dickson - to take back my money

me being on the verge of bankruptcy shuld not be going out so much but i jus wanna spent time wif ppl tat have a place in my heart..

2005-06-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

haha, i reopened my blog.. for no particular reason.. well, for those hu didn't noe.. i graduated from poly already.. n going to ns on 10th june.. which is next fri.. mainly this reopened blog will contain abt my new ns chapter in my life.. well, i hate to close my poly chapter but no choice.. =)) pretty simple layout i mus say.. but i jus like the black haha.. so see ya peeps..

2005-04-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

didn't update ytd cos i was lazy =XX

ytd was rotting at home the whole morning.. late afternoon was disturbing mich.. then went out to meet huiting to get my ic back as i need it to extend my passport.. so i meet her at dover cos she say it's nearer to her place.. jus nice as i was abt to leave cw reached dover, so waited for him for awhile lorz.. went to ps to meet mich n jason.. watched interpreter.. not bad la the show.. i think it have a plot but i didn't really understand it due to nicole kidman heavy accent.. so conclusion is, unless u can understand wat she talking please dun watch.. lol.. rating is 3/5.. didn't do anything after tat we jus went home.. reach home already 10 plus so i missed the show again.. damn missed 2 episode liaoz.. next week will miss 3 somemore.. haiz.. sianz..

today - went to lavender to extend my passport.. meet cw there.. he cb i told him 2.15 he tot 2.30.. end up i waited for him for quite some time.. lucky not many people there.. waited for like 5 mins.. well, actually my passport haven't expire yet but due to some stupid 6mths rule i have to go extend it.. it's like if i'm going on the 25apr.. the passport mus expire after 24oct.. smth like tat.. 6mth thingi.. waste my time oni sia.. so here come a stupid problem.. mich one expire on the 25th oct.. but she cannot extend cos for some stupid reason, ladies passport cannot extend, mus make new one.. but no time to make new one.. now make the earliest wed then get.. so now is really hope to that she can go thru lo.. cos is jus nice on the dot 6mth.. but if she cannot go in i might abandon the trip.. so anywayz, went to play pool wif cw at queenstown after that.. time flies so fast that we played for abt 2 hrs wifout realising it.. acc. him to eat after that before heading back home.. actually i wanted to wait for mich at orchard after her body combat class but she didn't want me to wait.. so nvm lo i go home slp until 9.. then watch tv as usual.. anywayz mich.. this bottom part is for u..

todays show highlights:

aili asked sheng to move out becos she had a potential tenant but this tenant dun like to have a guy ard.. so yixin went to look ard for a new place for sheng.. xiao fen got news of it and decided to let sheng stay in her home since there is an extra room there.. after much protest from her parents.. xiaofen also bought for him a hp.. xiaofen told sheng to move to her place jus moments before yixin arrived to tell sheng that she found a place.. sheng moved to xiaofen place though.. yixin got jealous n wif some advice from aili, she decided to take the initiative.. meanwhile dave got a chance to send joeann home, after her bike broke down.. but upon reaching her place, there is a middle age man in her place (dunno hu also) so Dave got the idea that joeann was his mistress.. but he not giving up..

so anywayz, tracy told dave that she made this new online frend, n she went to meet her.. so dave took the chance to go to joeann hse to give her smth.. to his suprise tracy was there as joeann was the friend tracy made online.. yixin told sheng abt her feelings but sheng told her tat they are not suited together as he got no future.. yixin told him not to give up on himself.. she gave him 2 midnight tickets n told him that she will wait there until he turns up.. sheng, after giving it some thought, decided to go n meet her..

sheng mother had a bdae party n hongqing restaurant to cater for the dinner.. tracy had asked joeann to come to the party.. sheng n xiaofen tot that she was yixin.. joeann lost her earring which she bought from france n dave tot it was sheng hu took it.. after some squabbling here n there, dave told sheng to remove his clothings to prove that he didn't take it.. when he took of his shirt, dave mother saw the scar on his back.. the one which she put medicine for him when sheng was small.. sheng then ran out of the place with his mother realising that was her son..

~end of story~

2005-04-21T04:51:00.000+08:00

look at the time now.. it's 5 in the morning so gonna make it short..

*note my previous entry i put a ger name as pearl, it was a mistake her name is kaiyan =))*

today meet my classmates at 1 at bugis.. i was abit late so they went to eat first.. they came looking for me later at mrt station n we waited for mich.. so we from there walk to golden mile complex.. was asking ard for the prices to go genting n we were kind of looking for the cheapest one.. so anywayz, we realised tat the date we wanted to go buey gum cos some had plans on already.. so end up we next mon going.. abit rush sia.. anywayz, colyn called said wanna meet today.. but end up nv cos her frend bdae thingi end so late.. lol.. tio dua again.. nvm.. so while waiting for her tat time, i accompany my classmates go sim lim where we look for computer stuffs.. after that we went for a snack where we discuss abt the details of the trip.. couldn't believe that we discuss abt it so long.. abt 2 hr wifout realising it.. after we realise it was quite late.. we decided to leave.. i tot of waiting for colyn but she told me not to so nvm lorz.. i was at tanjong pagar when eric call me go to somerset.. simi lj call me go back when i jus pass by tat place.. zzzzz.. anywayz, i was half hearted to go n meet him cos i wanted to go home watch tv.. also nv meet colyn liaoz anywayz.. but i tot, nvm la once in a while wun die.. meet him, had dinner, went to play arcade.. got to know 2 of his frends.. tiki n phyliss i think.. not sure.. tiki is from thailand tat's y her name so weird.. anywayz, wanted to go home liaoz then eric received a call from elise.. she landed up in hospital.. y?? cos she tried to commit suicide by popping 40 pills.. siao bo.. so me n eric go down to see her.. well, somehow i ended up until 3 am there.. thanks to huiting for acc me.. n my classmates for disturbing me for awhile to discuss abt the trip during this hospital time.. zzzz.. but not bad la.. today got to noe 3 gers.. tiki, phyliss n elise.. =PPPP

2005-04-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

*dun feel like typing, so a short entry*

hmm, today went to meet fadz the bdae boi, lady joanna n edmund at ginza.. then lady joanna wif xiaoting n pearl i think.. not sure of pearl name cos i jus noe her today.. anywayz, we were at mac rotting all the way.. the gers bought cake for fadz, but the stupid cake got some sort of powder on the top which make me choke.. like dust tat kinda feeling.. was smsing mich cos really got nth to do.. but quite fun la.. poke fun at the gals.. the gals were like sushi crazy today.. i was wondering wat the hell happen to them.. they still thurs wan to go eat sushi.. wat the hell.. they was like keep on ordering sushi.. then they no money liaoz we at mac go n di siao siao other ppl tat we noe saying tat hu can sponser $2 get pearl hp no.. lol.. btw, i noticed tat pearl look alot like jocelyn.. bad memories for me.. well, one stupid thing happen, i was at the counter ordering drinks, then mich smsed me.. so naturally i took out my hp.. the rest tot i wan to ask the ger at the counter for her no lo.. i got so diaoz anot.. lol.. anywayz, we talked cock until 6 plus.. before we all left.. the gers n edmund went home while me n fadz went to et to play arcade for 1hr.. nobody there sia.. on a side note, my rock fever skills drop alot.. can't pass fever, pro got problem.. think i'm back to special lvl.. GG.. left there at 7.30 cos i wan to go home to watch the show at chan 8 at 9 pm.. i shuld be going back early nowadays to watch this show.. haha..

2005-04-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

ytd was a pretty boring day.. wif me doing nth.. i jus stayed at home, watched tv n played computer the whole day.. my day was like..

wake up, on com to see hu's online.. didn't saw anyone so i went to watch tv.. at 4 plus i msg weng, asking him if there's any job at starhub then inform me.. i can't everyday stay at home.. i running out of cash n i need to save up for the malaysia trip.. we ended up playing dota for 2 rds.. before i had to go to eat dinner.. well, after dinner i fell asleep.. alarm clock woke me up at 9pm cos i wanted to watch channel 8.. not that mich forced me to but i jus wanted to watch on my own accord.. so far the show looks pretty promising.. so anywayz, after the show i went on msn to talk to mich abt the show.. at 11 plus weng came back home n we went for a rd of dota.. after that rd i think he was busy or smth so nv play liaoz.. rotted in front of the computer for like 1hr before seeing mich come online.. talked to her for quite sometime before sis wanna use com.. so i ended up calling her n talking on the phone.. until 4 plus i think cos her phone no batt.. then i tio kup!!! haha..

anywayz, today is fadz bdae.. i can't believe he's in a state of confusion over this reaching of his 2 decades of life.. i was like

"come on man, at least u will be still enjoying poly life, i'm like going in ns soon u fark"

here's my bdae greetings to u..

"Happy Bdae Buddy.. dun let the 2 decade thing get to u.. everyone reaches this point in their lifes.."

2005-04-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus uploaded abt 40 pics from thurs kbox outing.. i didn't bother to edit the colors of the pics cos too many liaoz.. so some pic maybe not be clear due to the surroundings.. i also nv check whether the links working anot so if there's any link tat is not working or repeat pictures kindly inform me in my tag board thanks..

well, today rotted to home cos ytd had a very long day.. mainly becos my classmates are over at my hse.. supposed to go out wif fadz ytd one.. then he fri nite nv call me so i told my frends to come over lorz.. then he sat morning then tell me he going to meet ryan at cine to watch movie ask me wan to come anot.. well, sorry man i had to turn u down..

anywayz, we were all supposed to meet at bukit gombak mrt at 12pm.. oni jason reached there on time, wif me being 5 mins late.. cw at tat time still at tiong bahru.. mich on the other hand, went to the doctor as she had fish bone stucked in her throat.. i was worried sia hoping tat it would be fine.. lucky it turn out to be ok.. well, so me n jason tot wan to go eat first, walking halfway to the coffeeshop, yeo called n told us to wait for him.. we jus told him to meet us at the coffeeshop.. after eating, cw n mich arrived.. cw haven't eat so we told him to go ta pao macdonald haha.. reach my place liaoz, we all went to change to go swim den rain.. zzzzzz.. so while waiting for the rain to stop they played uno while i was reading newspaper outside.. finally the stupid rain stop so we go n swim.. haha, mich n cw dunno how to swim so yeo was teaching cw how to swim.. mich was like "teach me leh" but me n jason dunno how to teach leh.. didn't really do much there cos i forgot to book the pool table.. by the time mich remind me the management office close liaoz.. we ended up in the steam bath.. where tat stupid cw talk abt how tvb shows always like to show all the big boss doing deals in a sauna or smth like tat.. end up we was like acting out, cw being the buyer n me being the seller.. haha.. the topic is abt fake passport.. tat stupid ass still can tell me he wan 1000 passport.. lost.. anywayz, after that, we went back up to my place where everybody took turns to shower n play com.. weng went off at 5 plus, he meeting his secondary school mates for dinner.. so the rest of us rotted at my place all the way until 10 plus.. we then headed to west mall cos wanna watch creep.. we reached there earlier cos meet my uncle on the way there n he gave us a ride down for free.. meet up wif weng again there, bought the tickets, toilet etc.. well, abt the show.. it's nicer then samara.. but due to the lack of plot n the short movie time, i oni gave it a 2.5/5.. the show oni abt 1hr 15min lo.. sianz.. after the show we went to eat our dinner.. yeah it's late but we all haven't eat yet wif exception of weng.. mich treated me eat.. i wanted to pay her back one but noeing her pattern, is sure cannot one.. anywayz, we stopped by 7-11 tp buy tibits before walking back to my place.. took us abt 15mins to walk back.. cos not so near.. anywayz, reach back liaoz kanna forced to play bluff by mich.. after tat cw taught us how to play another card game.. then me n jason play all the way liaoz haha.. well, after a while we went out to watch tv.. nth much to watch so we ended up watching dvd.. "the italian job".. i watched before liaoz but jus watch again la since long time nv see liaoz.. after that we all went to slp.. supposed to slp but end up talking.. mich la ask me so many questions.. macam i kanna integoratted like tat.. well, i somehow managed to fall asleep.. someone disturbed my slp by making my nose itchy so i jus spun ard wif the intention of wacking the person.. when i slp is like tat one, i got a hot temper.. but i stopped when i saw it was mich.. after tat it was like drifting in n out of my slp.. can't rmb y also.. finally woke up at 12 pm like tat.. room was in a mess.. cleaned before we all left to eat.. i had the idea of eating ard my area when mich say wan to go makan at jurong point.. i was like huh.. but i was ok wif it la as usual.. but yeo dun wan so we ended up eating at my area.. i could sense tat mich was dulan but i didn't wan to make things worse i jus diam diam oni.. after eating we all went our seperate ways.. thus ending my entry for today.. =))

2005-04-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

i received this letter today..

You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 10 Jun 2005 (Fri) at 8.30am to Basic Military Training Center School 2 (BMTC SCH 2)

tat's it.. explain my feelings n everything i suppose..

2005-04-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda tired so i wun talk much abt today..

i can't believe i woke up late today.. not late for exam but jus late for last min chiong.. play too much game liaoz last nite.. cannot la.. i reached school at abt 11 then waited for mich and jason before we went to foodcourt2 to study n eat there, saw ben there so we studied together.. was under pressure as ben puts it "we run so long liaoz finally see the finishing line".. my last paper so considered graduate liaoz.. unless i fail which i hope not.. studied until time to take paper, saw the paper, luckly all the long ans ques. is all calculations so i roughly noe.. lucky not much theory cos i didn't study theory at all.. i was lucky again.. finish quite fast, was rotting ard waiting for someone i noe to leave.. marc n jy went out so i go out also.. waited for mich before we went to dover to meet cw.. headed to cineleisure where we meet yeo.. went to cold storage to buy stuffs for kbox.. didn't wan to buy the things at kbox cos expensive.. anywayz, we went to kbox oni to find out they have a 3hr time slot oni.. wow, last time can sing so long now oni 3hr?? so we tot later then come back n we went to eat pasta mania.. i was a noob in eating pasta i keep on dropping the spagetti.. haha.. anywayz, after tat we went to sing, i didn't sing much la.. was having some kinda of sian feeling which i can't explain.. well, we all took alot of pics.. after the 3 hr time slot up liaoz, we went to esplanade to take somemore pictures as we didn't wan to go back so early..

some pics quite nice.. gonna upload them when cw n yeo send me n i edit abit.. tml going to play badminton.. i sure forget how to play one.. so long liaoz..

2005-04-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

*added 5 pics from peiyu bdae.. one of the pic the photographer bo skill nv tell me my face is blocked*

2005-04-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

same thing again, go school to study for tml paper.. today i went school quite late la.. abt 1.45 then reach cos i woke up late.. but nvm la.. acc ck go eat then we went to library to study.. today got study alot of calculations.. but now is theory i dunno at all.. die sia.. how to cramp into my brain.. plus see my kind of pattern i will study at home one meh.. haha.. tml after paper going kbox.. most prob will be havoc there.. haha.. supposed to meet colyn today.. but somehow she managed to slp all the way until 5plus 6plus.. pig sia.. then she say tml wan to meet me, but i going kbox leh.. ask her wan to come along anot but she dun wan.. so nvm lo next week i suppose.. sibei sianz leh, some of my classmates get their letter to go ns liaoz.. it's in june.. so i thinking mine maybe will also in june.. wan to enjoy also no time sia.. how how.. i think i can forget abt working la.. left one mth also work shit sia.. somemore got alot of plans haven't do yet.. argh.. so anywayz, i jus wanna enjoy watever time i have left..

dunno this sat will still be going to sentosa wif fadz they all anot.. supposedly to celebrate fadz bdae.. betta call him up soon..

2005-04-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

well, today go school study again.. meet them at 1 like tat then go makan at foodcourt 1.. after which we went to the library to study.. gaya n shini nv join us so we were like, how to do ar.. but we jus try to do lo as we had some tutorial ans.. not me though.. roughly know how to do those calculations ques.. jus need to refresh my memories tml.. anywayz, we didn't really study, as there were talks abt games n our trip to malaysia.. but ok la.. still betta then ytd.. the thing is now we have our destination, no. of people going n how many days.. but prob is we still haven't check the transport all this.. n haven't settle the rooms yet.. die.. haha..

anywayz, we left at 5.30 like tat, wanting to go home.. but at T14 there, as we were walking pass, some farkers throw eggs down.. i nv tio but the rest got tio.. nb.. i still look up to see i can catch a glimpse of the asshole when a load of wet tissues came down.. fark.. this time miss all but i was so dulan tat i shouted n ran up to find them.. but i could not find them, cb hum run away.. i shuld went up after the egg fell down but i was thinking maybe they run off liaoz.. but cb still got throw somemore.. fark.. wasted.. we went to T12 office to complain but all they said was it's not under their control there is nth they can do abt it.. simi lj leh.. knn if the stupid eggs tio ppl head will injury one leh fark.. we suspected a grp of ppl tat we saw as they were keep on looking down at us.. but then we also no evidence wat else we can do.. mich tio the most sia.. the shirt tio, her bag also tio.. knn dun let me find those assholes.. since we also cannot do anything no choice but to go home lo.. stay there also no use.. since they run off liaoz..

*i feel like killing people*

2005-04-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

well, nth much happen today so it's gonna be a short entry..

woke up at 10 plus cos supposed to go school at 12 to study.. but as usual i nua at the bed until mich called me at 11.15am.. realising tat i was late, i rush lo.. managed to reach at 12.15.. lucky the rest also late.. haha.. so we went to foodcourt 6 to eat.. alot of stores close sia.. so i went to eat rice wif fish soup.. well after tat, we went to study at the bench, but was too hot there so we all went to the business library.. i first time go there sia.. suaku.. supposed to study, but i ended up talking alot.. and playing wif my hp.. die sia.. i oni learn 1 or 2 things.. betta then nth *bluff myself* we talked abt alot of things sia, like guys hu wear their pants too tight, guys hu tie ponytail bla bla bla.. we "studied" until 4.30.. i think oni jason got study.. die la.. lucky my paper on thursday so not so bad.. after this paper, i gonna look for a job.. but the problem is, can find anot??

on my way home, i stopped by the barber shop near my place to cut my hair.. now is.. ok la.. abit short, but i'll let a few days for it to grow abit.. i maybe going to dye my hair this week.. shuld i??

2005-04-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

jus reach home after tonning outside ytd.. ytd was celebrating peiyu bdae.. so..

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIYU!! ~

i can't believe i forgot to wish huiting bdae on my blog.. tat is after she kp me.. haha.. so here's a belated happy bdae for u ting..

~ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TING!! ~

so practically speaking..

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIS!! ~

ok, i woke up at 1 plus cos tat wenlong call me.. ask me to meet him at 2.15 when it's already 1.30.. i was like shit la so late liaoz dun feel like going.. i still zzz until 1.45 before i force myself up n shower.. at 2.15 i still at home, luckly lj long also late.. end up we meet at 2.30 at jurong east then we head towards outram to meet mee pok.. when we reach outram, mee pok haven't reach yet so we waited for him for like 5 mins then he arrived.. so, we sat on the mrt all the way until pasir ris cos we wanted to go to escape theme park.. free admission leh.. i was suprised tat the rest dunno.. we 3 ate burger king while waiting for the 3 gers to come.. we waited for like 1hr++ before they arrived.. then go to the entrance, we saw one long long long queue there.. we ji tao sianz.. but we jus join the queue, waited for like 15 mins before can enter.. go in liaoz, we headed to queue at the flipper.. tat one nice sia.. cos maybe our weight not balance.. me n mee pok one side then lj long the other side, so our seat keep on spinning one direction non stop.. haha.. then after tat we headed to the invertor.. queued for so long.. abt 45mins.. for a 2 mins ride?? lol.. anywayz, after take tat one leg pain liaoz.. cos when hanging upside down in mid air, oni the leg supporting ur whole body weight so very suan after tat.. well, we wanted to queue for the daytona go kart but too late liaoz the place wan to close liaoz.. so we nv go.. we spend like few hrs jus to take 2 rides??? !@##%@%!@#!#.. too many ppl liaoz la cannot blame.. free ma..

forgot to mention, we saw huiting there also cos she also go there wif her church frends.. cheryl realised that her hp was missing.. but since it's still got the ringing tone we assume tat she left it in the hotel room.. so anywayz, we was like wondering wat to do after escape.. there was idea of going swensens eat, then party world, or going watch movie.. but they wanted to watch samara leh i fri jus watch wif my classmates oni.. so end up is left swensens or ktv.. we choose ktv.. so we had a cheap dinner, at magic wok.. me n cecilia secretly went off to buy a cake for peiyu.. peiyu was so suprise when she saw the cake.. but she say go ktv then eat so we nv eat at magic wok.. well, we headed to orchard hotel first cos the 3 gers wan to change clothes.. for wat i also dunno.. then we 3 guys waited at the nearby 7-11.. tat was when i realise my ic is missing.. fark i was so worried until i rmb i left it at the clementi funland there.. i still called mich n huiting cos i jus needed someone to talk to.. anywayz, thanks to huiting tat she go n take my ic from the funland there.. so temporary, i got no ic.. haha.. we 3 waited for the gers like 30 mins sia.. dunno wat they doing also..

anywayz, we meet up wif samuel n yizhen at party world.. anywayz, me n peiyu sing the most leh.. i dunno y the rest dun wan to sing.. btw, i dun recomend going there.. cos of these few reasons..

1. we book liaoz but we were late, they give the room to other ppl liaoz..
2. give room liaoz go in cnanot choose song, they haven't enable yet..
3. call the waiter so long then come n make the thing.. after tat then we realise the tv not working
4. mike spoil, cannot off de..
5. service sucks, they noe we got cake but nv give us paper plates or tissues..

we nv spend much time there la.. abt 1hr plus.. then minus all the fixing all those.. think oni 35 mins spend singing.. so we left n go back to the hotel.. at the hotel there, mus go up to the room seperately.. cos dunno wat stupid thing la the hotel oni allow 4 ppl in one room.. n we were like 8 person all together.. so we went 4 by 4.. in the room nv do anything much cos i was quite tired.. i oni ate cup noodle then i went to slp liaoz.. i rmb mee pok making the comment "this one zhu lai de, so fast slp liaoz" haha.. i wearing contacts leh bo pian.. i nv bring out my glasses..

*getting lazy to type so i'll make it short*

i dunno wat the hell the rest were doing la.. cos sibei kp sia they all.. i like keep on slp, wake up, slp, wake up.. too noisy liaoz.. anywayz, we booked out at 2 plus like tat.. before heading to cineleisure makan.. n took cab go home.. cecilia still say later wan to go play lan.. lost sia.. i wait for her to call first then see how la.. maybe i'll meet her later lo..

2005-04-08T14:10:00.000+08:00

*with reference to huiting blog*

well, for those hu still dunno, wat happen was some ger called ying took my codes which i did for huiting n said is she do one.. how would u feel if u did something which u put in alot of time n effort into it n some complete stranger jus come n copy n say "i do all by myself de".. obviously, tat's y i fought back n started this stupid thing..

man i can't believe i write my tags so nicely during this stupid thing.. maybe cos it's huiting bdae ytd but now, i jus gonna shoot them back..

i was wondering something.. after all those stupid things tat happen at huiting blog.. y would people say things tat kinda contradict themselves?? for example.. ask me to care my own problem.. first thing, i create n design huiting blog for her so i have the right to fight back when somebody copy my layout.. so wat abt u? hey, wat's has it gotta to do wif u?? care ur own problem la..

then, 2 people tag msgs tat r kinda hurting to huiting.. then.. they tag wif stupid
nicks.. i mean is like, if u got smth to say, say wif ur real name.. wat's the point to hiding n saying out?? tat is HUMJI.. when i tag at that ying's blog n fighting back wif u people, i didn't hide.. i used my real name.. but u 2?? maybe the 2 different nicks can also be the same person.. hu noes..

wif reference to me saying ying:
hey, i jus tag asking her not to say she do one when she copied from huiting blog.. less then 10 mins later my tag is gone.. if u got nth to be afraid off, y delete it away?? then after messing up my codes a few times, she go close her blog.. y?? i already step down n apologise for it.. i dun apologise when it's not my fault.. jus becos it's huiting bdae ytd n i didn't wan her to see her frends quarrelling..

since u people wan to say her until like tat, well, i suppose i can shoot u guys back already.. come to think abt it, does she need friends like u people?? she has betta friends like me, fadz n her church friends..

* end of story *

hmm, i dunno wat to say to huiting, it's like my fault tat i started this thing, but at the same time i made her realise hu r really her frends.. well, gonna go out to play pool wif fadz.. then meet up wif my classmates to watch samara..

*edited at 12.18am*

jus reach home, very tired.. pool wif fadz was alrite bah.. starting few rds lose then start to win back.. overall i think is a draw.. i played wif him for abt 1 hr before running off to meet mich n cw at mrt station.. i feel kinda bad ps him like tat.. but bo pian la.. was rushing to marina cos we almost late.. haha.. so anywayz, waited for yeo n jy cos they late.. lucky the show haven't start.. samara was ok.. i was abit scared at some part.. but after tat become used to it jus watch normally.. but i think not so nice leh.. i give 2/5 oni.. cos of the lame story line.. after tat, we dunno wan to do wat.. so we go eat.. i ate one claypot rice, which is not nice due to the chao tah ness.. lol.. after tat, went to arcade.. played the shooting game which can move ard de.. use ur body to move de.. but i was so stiff, tat my bravory was the highest among the rest hu played.. lol.. then wan to play bowling one, but too many people liaoz no more space.. so sad.. then we ended up at esplanade, where me n mich talk abt our past alot.. ok la, feel quite nice to have someone hu i can talk alot too.. i normally also nv talk so much to people.. think we talked for like 1.5hrs before heading home?? aiya think i stop here la.. needa go shower then play word racer wif mich n cw..

2005-04-07T19:54:00.000+08:00

hmm, ytd the matter, it seems to have been escalated abit.. one of her frends, jumped to her defence n said huiting gave the person involved the codes.. but noeing huiting, i doubt tat.. it's natural for someone to jump to their friends defense but i oni wish to say pls find out from both side first before saying anything.. me petty?? oh pls.. hu's the petty one wif the name calling n such?? i jus hope tat i didn't cause huiting too much trouble..

well, today is my programming paper.. i was initially pretty scared of it as i didn't noe wat nor how to study.. somemore my mst fail.. so i was oh shit i'm a gonner this time.. cos ytd nite wasn't really too free.. then this morning go school had early breakfast/lunch so i was soooo slpy.. end up slping for 1hr.. i think i oni studied abit oni.. the rest of the time is talk cock n etc.. so i was so suprised when i saw the paper.. it's almost identical to wat i studied.. lucky?? mus thanks my lucky star.. compared to mst paper, this is easy.. well maybe cos mst i study wrong thing.. now is tyco study correct thing..

after exam headed on clementi play game.. played for 2 hrs there before heading home.. on my way home ryan called me ask me go clementi play pool.. well, i was tired n it's kinda stupid to go back to a place i jus left so i didn't meet him.. although pool is my hobby.. haha.. well gonna stop here for now.. finally can relac for awhile.. my next paper is 7days later..

2005-04-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

wow, somebody copied the blog i did for huiting.. still can say she do her self n she hate copypigs.. ironic.. i suppose it's a gd time to put wat i learnt today =))

*updated at 10.12pm*

haha, it seems tat she could not figure out my codings for huiting blog.. keep on messing up the designs.. she hum sia i tag at her board jus say " hi, u may not noe me but pls dun say u make one when u copied"

then she go delete away my post.. HUM.. well, currently her blog cannot be found.. i dunno y she took it down.. maybe putting up another one, or dun wan me to keep on going to her webby to see whether she figure out already anot.. lol..

2005-04-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

gonna keep this short.. today is ethics n law paper.. which is obviously is about all those stupid laws etc.. didn't study much as i did not noe wat thing to study.. seems to have alot of things to study but yet at the same time, mus noe how to apply those into case studies.. anywayz, i jus cramped watever i could into this brain of mine in 4 hrs.. ok, took the paper, came out wif 2 diff kinda feelings.. it's either i correct all the way or i wrong all the way.. becos the case studies makes it seems like it can be answer A but at the same time, it can also be answer B.. to make it simple, we were all confuse.. there are many diff ans.. so.. i leave it to fate la..

tml is the last day i'll be seeing my classmates.. except those hu got take satelite module wif me.. abit sad sia.. i think i shuld be finding them more often if i cannot get a job.. or if possible, get the same job.. haha.. today still make so many plans.. like going sentosa, go zoo.. dunno we will actually do anot.. haiz, hope for the best la..

2005-04-05T18:39:00.000+08:00

hmm, mich was saying tat i nv update everyday.. shuld do it more often bla bla.. well, i gonna try to update everyday..

kkz, today is the start of my end semester paper.. to put it in easier terms, it means = "oh norman, u r dead"

well anywayz, today went to school earlier to study for mobile comunications.. although my overall percentage already pass, thanks to my kind teacher.. for helping me all the way.. but still have to study abit.. it's like a force of habit already.. so anywayz, studied then ate lunch.. me, josh, yeo n jason eat chicken rice.. oni mich was eating mac.. think we all budget haha.. after lunch did not study much.. due to the "i feel like slping liaoz"

so sat for the paper.. suprisingly it was quite ok.. considering i oni went for lecture once in this whole semester.. after the paper i went to print ethics n law notes.. tml this module test.. hopefully i can memorise all the junk into my head tml morning..

reach home n i decided to revamp my blog.. maybe after doing huiting's blog from the scratch, i jus feel like changing mine as well.. but it's a simple layout.. complemented wif a kinda nice wallpaper i think.. so tat's it.. gonna nap now.. tired..

2005-04-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

11 days n counting..

time flies, 3 yrs back i was jus entering poly n now, i'm going to graduate (provided i dun fail) it feels like a few days back only.. a lot of things i gonna rmb for life.. my classmates, how we used to chiong thruout the nite jus to complete the projs etc.. not to forget mahjong n poker sessions when we were bored.. haha.. definitely more enjoying then sec school.. i kinda half hearted to graduate actually.. half is wan to stay n enjoy poly life, not to mention the thought of ns.. but the other half is telling me to graduate as my classmates would be graduating as well so i stay on also no point.. well, see how my exams la..

ok this weeks highlights..

mon - wed : for watever thing happen to me i jus can't remember wat happen during these days.. i oni noe on wed i had this negotiation module exam which i think i did badly in it..

thurs : i went to tiong bahru to watch hse of fury.. well, not tat i wanted to but becos ck helped me book the ticket first before asking me abt the time all this.. i was dulan initially cos i was low on cash.. so, in order to accomandate i had to plan out how i going to spend my money over the next few days n follow it strictly.. well, but overall, hse of fury was not bad.. action wif abit of comedy in it.. my rating would be 4/5.. maybe it's higher cos got TWINS lol..

fri : okie, today, the "gang" came over to my place.. mich, jason, yeo n cw.. meet them at my mrt station at 12pm before going to eat n buying tibits.. so, the plan was to study.. yes we did study together.. we studied on how to play DOTA n poker.. haha.. die la.. at nite went to watch mc2.. miss congetiality 2 >> dunno how to spell la.. hmm.. i will give it 3.5/5.. going to bankrupt..

sat: today is celebrate huiting bdae.. it was celebrated earlier cos her bdae falls on a weekday, so no time.. so plan was, go jp eat seoul garden.. ouch my wallet.. got hole already still make bigger.. anywayz, we ate at seoul from 2 plus till 6.. damn i was bloated.. i forgot to mention hu was there.. me, fadz, matthew, nabil, edmund, huiting, hazel.. nabil ask me to join his crazy peeps grp.. lol.. which is taking vids of us doing stupid things.. take a senario.. crashing head on into a wall.. wow.. haha.. anywayz, huiting went to church after seoul n we headed down to clementi RC to play pool.. played for 2 hrs plus.. before nabil n matthew left us.. joanna was suppose to meet us, but she bubble on us.. wow.. edmund didn't wan to ton over at my place so he went back home.. so, me, fadz met up wif huiting n hazel n we went back to my place.. basically, did nth much there.. other then watching soccer n slp..

today: the moment huiting woke up, she ask me to do her blog.. omg.. so i started on it from scratch.. few hrs later.. it's like half complete.. after those 3 left.. i fell asleep until now.. die.. haha.. haven't study.. exams r coming.. wow.. i gonna have a hard time these few days..

amt of money i have left after these few days : $0.20

2005-03-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

18 more days n counting.. is there anyway to make time stop???

hmm.. making a quick update..

mon - tues : nth much happen.. jus as usual go school then go home tat kinda stuff.. not excluding DOTA lol..

wed - had a role play for one of my modules.. it was ok.. maybe used to it.. after school went to watch lemony snickets.. not bad tat show.. rating is 3.5/5.. abit short the show.. abt 1 n 1/2 hr.. jim carrey as usual is the rite character for tat movie..

thurs - stayed at home the whole day..

fri - hmm, this is a long day.. first of all i didn't noe it was a public holiday until cw told me.. how suaku i m.. went to meet cw, asyik n his frend for pool at clementi in the afternoon.. stupid mrt delay cos of dunno wat crap.. waited at JE station until so crowded.. macam ppl wan to go concert like tat.. so went down wanted to take bus to clementi, then asyik called told me he on cab ask me wan to tungpang anot.. of cos wan la it's FOC u noe lol.. they 3 pooling not bad.. cw improving also.. played until abt 5 before me n cw left that place..

went up to clementi mrt platform to meet yeo n mich.. we headed to marina bay.. reach there liaoz we go n play bowling.. i forgot hu won the first rd.. but second rd we tag team.. me n mich vs cw n yeo.. somehow they mus kanna cursed of smth they keep on kelong dunno y.. ending score was 113 n theirs is 35..

so, we went to eat steamboat after tat.. wow it was a horrible steam boat.. dun ask me wat happen.. it's jus horrible.. jus take it as i didn't eat much.. $10 nia wat u expect.. after tat, we went to KBOX.. cineleisure one.. sing until sore throat.. mich sing the most.. almost every song all she sing.. called colyn to see whether she there anot but she bo ans.. so nvm la.. headed home by cab.. had a little disagreement on hu take wif hu cos the 4 locations buey gum.. in the end me, yeo n mich take one cab n cw take alone..

sat - nth much today.. rotted at home the whole day.. no money.. ytd spend until overshot.. dunno how to survive.. maybe next week dun makan.. jovin called me out, but cannot la really no money.. colyn called, talk cock for awhile.. jus realised she is working at paradiz now not cine.. lol.. no wonder cannot find her ytd.. -_-"

tat's it.. gonna slp now.. sibei tired dunno y.. although i rotted at home doing nth??

2005-03-21T04:21:00.000+08:00

finally finish the god damn template.. took me abt 3 hrs but was worth it.. y suddenly change?? well, cos i saw mich msg in my taggy lol.. well, time to slp..

2005-03-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

kinda late so gonna make this entry short.. my eyes r closing..

fri: went to school at 10 plus.. to lecture.. end up i didn't do anything there, other then taking video wif my phone.. after tat when to do satelitte practical cos monday got lab test.. i think can do ba.. hopefully.. when to ps to buy tickets to watch at nite.. show is son of the mask.. walked to suntec after tat.. so bloody hot.. rotted there for like 6 hrs?? cos waiting for tat cw.. stupid farker.. then rushed down to ps cos not much time left.. well, overall the show is jus ok oni la.. i wouldn't recomend it.. no plot.. oni a few part nice.. 2 outta 5 mark.. i prefer the original mask..

sat: basically rotted at home cos mich tot i still slping then she nv call me go west mall.. well, i spent the whole day looking at zelderex.. man i gotta get a life.. had some sad conversation wif cw n mich in the nite.. =(

today: well, went out wif ah xiong n esther today.. went to clementi play pool.. esther seems to retain her skills from ginza days.. while me n xiong lost ours.. obviously we lose to her.. well, i kinda miss the ginza days where esther would be opening the shop at 10 am n stupid xiong calling me at 9 plus to come down lol.. too bad the stupid billard center in ginza close down.. haha, anywayz, played gunbound wif xiong until now.. for abt 4 hrs?? sibei tired..

all ritez gonna catch some slp.. nitez..

2005-03-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

well, i mus be very weak rite now.. too actually failed my napfa.. well, wat to do.. tis is the result of after so many yrs no PE n no exercise.. but tat's no excuse for failing.. which now makes me wonder how the hell did i get into PES A for army anywayz.. i so weak.. i tot PES A for those fit fit kind de..

anywayz, had a kinda long day today.. went to school in the afternoon.. to the usual boring classes which i wan to slp but cannot.. mich dulan wif shini cos of "long story".. wanted to go do satelitte but then got teacher say he got class.. nnb is free access he got class my problem ar.. waited for cw so long his presentation.. talking abt which mine is tml.. hmm i dun cock up this final yr proj presentation.. =) then went for nafpa.. guess wat.. me n cw r the last 2 in 2.4 km run lol.. lazy la.. plus wanna boost mich confidence tat she not the last one.. so we 2 walk all the way haha..

so after tat.. we went to clementi to eat kfc.. yeo came down to find us.. mus be nth to do at home then he come down.. lol.. after tat went to play pool.. played wif cw oni cos the rest dun wan to play.. sianz.. but ok la at least i got play.. lol.. cw also not bad la.. but he nv play much one mus physco him so long then he ok..

fri, going to work from 8-5.. so not going school.. wif eric.. at macpherson dunno do wat.. move things ard he says.. but i so weak dunno can anot.. after tat go watch.. either son of the mask or lemonny shickets tat show.. provided they got go la cos the movie timing buey gum one.. if not then i suppose i hang out wif eric for awhile before heading back home..

sat, going to west mall to see fann wong.. dun be shocked i'm not a sudden fan of fann wong.. i jus acc mich go see cos nearby my hse anywayz n most prob on at sat afternoon i will be rotting at home.. so she call me go wif her la.. still tell me after tat i will be converted to supporting fann wong.. i can assure her i'm 100% immune to it..

now body aching.. i betta go rest first.. byez..

P.S: ting if u r reading this.... U DUA ME AGAIN!!!! lol.. say wanna call but nv call =PPP

bloody waste of my time

2005-03-16T02:06:00.000+08:00

rehiz to all.. a very long time no update.. been very busy this few days.. mich ask to change my blog design to nike.. which unfortunately i did not do becos the tag board was down n i was thinking y my webby keep on loading so long.. then i tot it was the images/script problem so i took of the nike one n upload a much simpler template.. well, mich, sorry ar when i erase the nike one i forgot to save so i maybe will take a longer time to get everything back in order.. temporary tis layout..

well, abt time when i actually finish all my bloody projs.. it's been so long since i had free time.. well, i still have my final yr proj presentation on thurs but i think tat shuld be ok.. talking abt proj i fucked up 2 of them.. incomplete.. dunno can pass anot but i noe if i say i will fail someone will sure kp me.. =) kinda relieve all the stress n tonning has come to an end.. gonna call colyn out liaoz since she quit her kbox job n she said gonna wait for me to finish my exams before we go look for job together.. well, i told her i wanted a day job this time lol..

friday planning to watch.. wat's the god damn title.. lemonny shickets something............ dunno la.. the jim carrey one.. watching wif my classmates as usual.. now i kinda regret nv hang out wif them since yr 1.. maybe cos tat time not close to them.. but anywayz, gonna cherish my time wif them.. less then 1 mth to spend wif them..

anybody wanna play pool?? lol..

projs, projs, nth but projs

2005-02-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

long time didn't update.. gonna keep this short as it is quite late n i gonna go slp soon..

*edited*

- got back 3 of my mst papers.. 2 failed n 1 jus pass..

- my running 2.4km has improved by 2 mins..

- pull ups performance went down by abit.. too heavy??

- 4 projs due in the next few weeks..

1st proj due: Monday
Status: Report Completed, Presentation 0%

2nd Proj due: Friday (Important.. Final Yr Proj.. Fail = Retain)
Status: Website 60%, Log Book 95%, Report 0%

3rd Proj Due: 2 weeks from today
Status: Website 0%, Report 0%

4th Proj Due: 2-3 weeks from today
Status: Report 0%, Presentation 0%

*end of editing*

how ar?? it seems tat i will have to cramp all my available time into my projects.. well, cw helping wif my final yr so maybe not so bad.. + got huiting supporting me =) lol..

training

2005-02-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

well, my exams r finally over.. although i can say i sucks in 2 of them n 2 maybe can oni.. so.. pretty rocky for me.. is pass or fail.. (although i noe mich sure got smth to say abt tis..)

well, i started to train ytd.. went to clementi stadium wif marc n jy.. oh boy.. i lost most of my stamina n strength.. i lost to jy by one rd n marc by half rd.. timing was.. 7th rd completed at 18 min.. damn.. 3 yrs no train n i deprove until like tat?? i gonna train till i reach my sec 4 form which was 6 rd in 10 mins.. also, while training, i noticed my 6 pack going to form into one liaoz.. lol.. die la.. how to get back.. i oni see the lines now.. n fats lol.. but i see like not much time left la.. 16 march napfa liaoz..

did alot of pull ups.. lost arm strength also.. couldn't do as many pull ups as before.. but i still can hang there for like 2 mins.. not bad for me.. but i think due to the prolong time of me hanging there, my arms are aching now.. lol..

well, i going out to ta pao smth for my dinner.. kinda sucks when i have to go out every night to buy smth to eat when i m so used to have dinner at home.. =(

11 days n counting

start of boredom

2005-02-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

haiz, my parents go to china for 2 weeks.. 1 day haven't even pass n i already miss them.. maybe cos i'm not used to being alone at home or maybe cos i m quite close to them..

well, today law paper was quite ok.. it's confirmed pass but whether i can get high marks for the paper remains to be seen.. lucky oni got a few things to learn.. tml, satellite.. haiz.. sure gone case i now haven't even start studying.. + this one lecture i nv go one.. n tutorial always talk cock.. die liaoz.. mus pup in all the info tml morning..

i did abit of hsework.. man it's been a long time since i done hsework.. do abit oni feel so tired.. kaoz.. this shows tat i'm a bag of lazy bones.. haha.. sibei weird sia like the whole hse dark dark.. cos i nv on the lights.. save electric.. lol..

13 days n counting..

die liaoz la

2005-02-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

ok i'm fucked big time.. my first paper of the week n i fucked it up big time.. first time i had a paper which not even one ques. i m certain of the answer.. even if i did, there is the mistake of punctuation errors..

freak man i damn stressed up rite now.. this yr question format is totally different from all the past yrs paper that i did today.. first thing, no mcq.. wtf?? it's like, i can't get any free marks from mcq.. secondly, the whole god damn paper is basically fill in the blanks.. wah kaoz leh.. as most of it are codings, i end up not knowing wat to put inside the blanks as.. to put in simply.. too many blanks in a line of coding.. see until blur liaoz.. argh i'm dead..

gonna have a nap now.. later wake up still must study law.. total memorisation like history.. i hate it.. worst thing, each n every word of a law must be exactly the same.. no change.. eg: without authority.. can't use without permission.. wth.. today punctuation error.. tml use words wrongly although have the same meaning.. let me see.. i got abt 10++ laws to memorise n their respective punishment?? need alot of luck this time to get thru..

Exams = Headache

2005-02-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

phew, jus reach home after being out for the whole day.. well, been kinda busy or more like lazy to update this blog for a certain period of time.. but well, since my 2 weeks of holidays r gonna end i guess i will come back n blog more often..

ok.. first thing, next week is my mid semester tests.. if u see me kinda cranky during tis period of time then pls accept my apologies in advance as i m quite stress rite now.. stupid school had to put MST during valentine's day.. lol.. alot of ppl complaining sia.. tis is the result of me skipping 95% of my classes since start of school.. now trying to cramp everything into my head.. oni at school though, u wun see me doing that at home..

today went to school to "study".. didn't do much.. 75% of the time was spent playing all sorts of card games.. mich lo ask me to bring then end up nv study.. how can.. tml die liaoz la.. the deck of card is banned from my bag for 1 week =)

secondly, my parents are going overseas on tues, 15th Feb, and wun be back until the 28th.. so practically speaking, i'm gonna be home alone for the next 2 weeks.. wow, i'm going to be bored to death.. u noe when u r all alone at home n the atmosphere seems to be a little to quiet.. so.. all my frends out there, feel free to come over and TON~!~! lol.. or maybe i'll go over ppl hse n ton to study for my tests.. it's my last semester but yet, i getting more lazy in my studies.. hope to be able to make it thru for the last time..

on the other hand.. make it thru = ns.. which is also sianz.. haha.. but gotta graduate wif all my classmates.. hmm, maybe gonna have an overseas trip wif them after graduation.. looking forward to it..

PS: for those planning to watch the show "Constatine", pls do so at the risk of not understanding the plot cos 75% of the time they are talking in whispers which are freaking hard to catch..

photo galore~!

2005-02-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

yo long time didn't update liaoz.. haha.. quite lazy la.. well, today i got upload alot of pics.. mostly old ones.. 3 new ones.. n 2 pics abit blur.. photographer no skill la.. anywayz, i uploaded alot but didn't bother to check whether the links working anot so if any of the links is not working pls inform me.. thanks alot..

last sunday went to bugis wif the usual gang (classmates) went to buy new yr stuffs.. it was then i realised some guys shop even longer then gers sia.. wait until wan to die liaoz still haven't finish shopping.. lol.. ran into huiting tat day.. bought a pair of jeans.. lazy to talk much..

well, tis week is holiday for me.. mainly didn't do anything much other then rotting at home.. thurs n fri went to school cos, thurs kanna forced by mich come down one.. then on fri is i need to hand in my negotiation skills hw.. both days stayed until very late accompany my classmates for wat i also dunno.. haha.. sat met my classmates for dinner.. end up at clementi eat mac after changing places a few times.. wtf.. lol.. after tat went to play pool wif them.. first time play wif them.. lost to cw 2 times.. paiseh sia.. but nvm la i anyhow play also.. then yeo trash cw.. so i challenge yeo lo.. won tat challenge.. then left the rest play pool me n jason go do our usual activity.. which is play shooting game.. lol end up they wait for us until mich abit dulan haha.. sorry ar we play very long one.. kkz la.. i going to go cut hair liaoz.. hope not another bad haircut..

(i going now ok mich?? stop asking me when i going to cut hair!!!)

computer headache..

2005-01-21T17:33:00.000+08:00

hey peeps, i have a small prob here.. i have a new com coming in n i need to change some parts here n there.. but before tat, let me stat down wat each com have..

my current com:
P3 700Mhz
1 40GB HD n 1 20GB HD
64MB GeForce 4 MX440
512MB RAM

the new com:
P4 2.4Ghz
40 GB HD
On Board Graphic Card (Sucky for games)
256MB RAM

now it is pretty obvious tat i only wan the processor.. prob is, changing the processor is not a gd idea as i might break the pin of the processor.. another suggestion was to change the RAM, Graphic Card n HD.. but my dad wan to use the old com n my old com got no onboard graphic card so i can't do tat..

so i oni got 2 choices.. one is to ask someone to take the risk n change the processor.. or, i jus change the RAM n HD, while i go buy a new Graphic Cards.. so wat do ya all think peeps??

ending shuld be like tis:

old com:
P3 700Mhz
20GB HD
64MB GeForce 4 MX440
256MB RAM

new com:
P4 2.4Ghz
2 x 40 GB HD
[New Graphic Card]
512MB RAM ++ *i might be buying additional ram*

any other betta idea cos i not really keen on the idea on spending $$$ as i said before i wanted to buy a PS 2..

change of bg music

2005-01-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

hey.. those hu were here a few days back would have heard my old bg music.. well, i changed it to this one.. which one nicer?? i felt the old one was too repetive tat's y i change.. leave ur comments in the taggy =)

bored to death

2005-01-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

hiz all.. erm.. hu's the all i dunno.. dun tink anybody read tis anymore.. jus like a memory for me in the future haha.. well, been staying at home for the past few days.. it would seems tat i suddenly become a guai kia..

but the thing is tat no one jio me out.. dunno y leh my hp suddenly so quiet.. oni got jovin call me out but he always call me go to clementi arcade which i dun like to go.. i go there bo hua cos i nv play much arcade anywayz.. i m more like the pool kind of person now.. anybody wanna have a challenge in pool?? i'm not gd at it though so lac abit ok??

i'm kinda bothered by alot of things tis few days.. mainly school work.. i'm afraid tat i will not be able to complete my final yr project on time as my grp really dunno how to do the codings.. maybe due to tis unexpected load of stress coming onto me makes me more bad-tempered as if i have return back to my old self..

well anywayz, since i always nth to do at home cos got no nice mmorpg at the moment n i quited playing maple story already, i was planning to purchase a playstation 2.. well, it will dry up my savings but it's ok.. new comp already coming but wif no games to play also like tat.. which means i have to buy a tv for my room as well.. let's see.. playstation abt $350 i think.. tv.. make it $200.. so.. $550?? wow i gonna go broke after tis.. =(

problems

2005-01-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

tag board problem still there.. those hu dunno how to solve it jus post watever u wan to say, then go to another section eg: links then go back to chitchat.. ur post will appear.. haiz, alot of ppl say i getting fatter liaoz.. see from pics also can tell me face sibei chubby now.. die la.. cannot cannot mus not eat for few days liaoz lol..

itchy hand

2005-01-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. my itchy hand go n touch the blog template again.. well maybe cos i m too bored at home already.. no game to play no show to see nth to do at all.. =X well, huiting said my prev. blog abit like ger one.. so now i change to tis lo.. dun say look like ger again hor.. well, uploaded some pics taken during christmas (yes yes i noe it has been so long) but i haven't got all the pics from chicken wing yet.. so, to my classmates who r seeing tis pls send me the rest of the pics apart from the one tat has already been uploaded.. thanks alot..

2005-01-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

happy new yr to all.. well 2004 ends n here comes 2005.. i not so eager to step into 2005 cos it's the yr where many things is going to happen.. like me going on to the big 2 age, ending school n moving on to ns.. well, i wish school will nv ends as i really like the way my life is now.. always wif schoolmates brings abt laughter n joy.. well, but mus end la.. so bo pian haha.. kkz..

fri nite, went out to meet jovin, freddy n terence at esplanade.. when i saw terence i told him he look strikingly familiar to me.. but he said he nv see me before so i was like ok la maybe i see wrongly or wat.. met up wif gab n his gf.. when for a drink at marina square cos gab had a movie to catch at 12.25.. chucky's seed or smth like tat.. (btw i got the show already.. =X vcd) so, we headed down to marina south.. our mode of transport.. a bus.. not sbs bus.. terence drove us there.. so meaning.. 1 big bus inside oni got 4 ppl.. so we were like playing in the bus.. since so many space anywayz.. so, terence left us there n he went to fetch his workers.. we played arcade until abt 3 am when terence return wif a van tis time.. tompang us back to esplanade n terence headed back to clark quay to return the van.. so we waited for him to return.. then the farker call us say too many ppl cannot wait for taxi n he decided to walk back.. so.. from a short wait it became a long one.. well, after terence return we hopped on his new madza car n we went to chinatown to eat.. well, tis part kinda stupid.. after eating we headed over to terence hse to ton there.. kk, then reach there liaoz i went into his rm.. his brother come out to ask him things.. tat was when i shocked.. his brother is.... jiovane.. i was like "eh cannot be jiovane la" then i took a second look n he also looking at me blur blur.. lost leh.. haha.. then, alot of craps happen la since like i alternate bet terence n jiovane.. lazy to say out liaoz..

stayed over till next day 6pm like tat.. headed home, rotted at home till now.. haha.. well gtg liaoz tml school.. so nitez.. n enjoy the new yr..

2004-12-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

NOTICE:

There is a slight error in my tagboard whereby in the event u post a msg, the msg will not appear at the tag-board..
so some of u might keep on pressing the tag button thus flooding the tagboard eg mich =X
dun worry, the message is there..
jus refresh n the message will appear in the tagboard..
sorry for any trouble caused..

2004-12-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

well merry christmas to all.. haha.. well, i noe i have been changing my template alot tis few days.. i wanted to experiment wif the look of my blog.. well, as my christmas present to michelle was the fann wong template.. it's time tat i change to another template as christmas is abt to over.. anywayz, christmas eve outing was not tat bad.. nv went as well as we planned to (refer to prev. entries) as come to the part of pooling not many ppl was keen on it except me n mich (we always anything de lol) seoul garden was gd.. had alot of fun playing wif the food lol..

oh yeah.. jason play time crisis not bad sia.. tag team wif him once n completed the game.. =) well, i must say tat after the movie was the most boring part of the outing as we all dun noe wat to do so end up walk walk walk until morning.. wanted to take first train but mich lazy so end up taking taxi wif asyik.. jason, marc took mrt.. while josh n jiayang took cab..

well, next week friday again new yr eve.. zzzzz.. mich was talking to me abt new yr eve on the cab saying wan to go ppl hse ton.. but i was dozing off on the cab so nv listen much.. but noeing her she must have already planned smth out.. haha..

2004-12-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

haha fann wong template.. for mich.. well didn't put in much effort in tis one yet.. cos i dun have much pics of her.. waiting for mich to send lol.. then i'll work on it.. banner found on the web one lol.. mich dun say dun have hor i got change lo.. but look like ger blog lol =X

2004-12-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

haiz monday blues... as usual.. well, not so bad.. i actually had fun in school.. now helping ting wif her blog template.. stupid ger ask me change to many things.. nvm la i dun mind helping anywayz..

ytd was cherie bdae.. paiseh nv buy the flowers i owe ya.. i tot u would forget after 8 mths lol =X but somehow u remembered.. well i jus owe ya for now kk.. so anywayz, i changed hp liaoz.. not the no. but the phone lol.. now free incoming liaoz so call all u wan ppl lol.. model changed from N6610 to Sony Ericsson K508I

got mp3 player but i dunno how to put inside.. no usb port or smth.. thing is mus ppl send me then can.. wth.. so i'll make do wif recorded for now lol.. well, can't type much gotta think for huiting blog design =)

2004-12-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

haha how's my new blog outlook?? nice anot?? haha.. nth betta to do then change lorz.. those hu dun noe it is base on the online game maple story.. but i nv play liaoz due to overloading school work.. =) any comments pls leave in tag board thanks alot..

2004-12-17T02:02:00.000+08:00

4 days of school liaoz.. times sure flies.. er.. make tat 3 days of school.. i today nv go school cos overslept haha.. happy to see all my frends again.. can talk all the crap n bull again during classes or lecture hall.. anywayz.. me n mich already plan out wat to do on christmas eve.. so.. see hu wan to go oni..

plan is:
morning = go school (duh)
7.00pm = meet up, eat, then go play bowling or pool etc.
1.00am = go watch movie "Kung Fu Hustle" (we booking on sun cos scared no place)
after movie ends = go to lao pa sa makan
after makan = talk cock (as usual) until train start service.. (may subject to changes)

so basically tat's it.. well, i'll take tis opportunity to say sorry to the 2 couples.. it looks like i wun be spending christmas eve wif you all.. well doesn't matter anywayz.. i'll be the extra if i go wif u all =) so enjoy urselfs on tat day..

2004-12-13T19:27:00.000+08:00

almost 2 weeks since i last updated my blog.. cos i was plain lazy.. nth much to update anywayz.. hu the hell will go n read wat i do everyday?? haha

today marks the start of my school term.. short holiday.. well, was a pretty fine day.. till the last lesson.. tat lesson.. briefing suppose to be short n brief rite.. turns out.. the lecturer talk non stop for 2 hrs.. wow.. first time i see ppl can talk longer then me.. non-stop somemore.. i really got nth to say.. almost fell asleep during tat lesson.. lucky got ck n michelle keep me accompany.. was planning a class outing of christmas eve.. but.. i will have to choose.. my usual grp or wif my school mates.. already had some plans on wat to do on tat day wif my class mates whereas wif fadz.. no plans yet.. so i may choose to hang out wif my class mates.. anywayz my last term wif them already..

farking tired.. 8-5 today.. wif oni 1hr break.. going to nap now =)

2004-12-01T03:28:00.000+08:00

well, i changed my template again.. as well as the background music.. some of the links nv bold one i dunno y.. well, actually i wanted to use the WMA version of this song but somehow the song cannot load.. maybe it's too big?? the filesize was 1mb.. so i no choice but to use the midi version of this song..

today woke up at 2 plus in the afternoon.. actually was woken up by jovin's call.. call me go out.. damn if he nv call me i would still be slping.. i getting more n more like a pig these days.. well anywayz, when to his hse to play game after tat.. play till 5 plus when to town to meet elgin.. actually wanted to watch movie one.. then stupid jovin say alexander out liaoz.. i was like "eh.. i tot thurs then out" he still can say he jus check on internet.. so we was like "ok la since u got see let's go buy" so, when we were lining up at ps gv.. i was looking at the screen where got show the movie timing.. nv see alexander at all.. nvm.. told jovin abt it then we went to axs machine to double confirm.. really dun have.. think he must have checked on the wrong date or smth.. then me n elgin was like "cb tio dua" oh yeah.. while lining up at the axs machine i saw yat ling n maryanne.. said hi to yat ling n talked for awhile before heading off to eat at foodcourt.. jovin treated me to dinner.. so nice.. since we nv watched movie we decided to call kelvin down.. it's been a long time since all 4 of us were out together anywayz.. headed towards parklane to play lan.. there was this lan shop tucked away in the corner which i nv notice for the countless no. of times i went there.. alot of ppl there sia.. no place so had to be placed on the waiting list.. so we went to play arcade instead.. okay for 1 hr plus still no call.. so we went back to check.. no 4 seats together so we seperate 2 by 2.. tat lan shop really got alot of games sia.. n i'm not kidding when i say the com there is gd.. i play all the graphic consuming game n there was no lag at all.. wow..

anywayz, jocelyn n eric called when i was playing.. jocelyn, i dunno wat she wanted as she didn't say much but if i can roughly guess.. shuld be sad over smth.. eric called jus to ask me to check on iguana mobile webby.. he tot tat it was down.. anywayz.. we played till quite late, almost miss the last train infact.. reached home, look at my blog, tot tat it was time to make a change, n viola.. my new blog look =)

2004-12-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

was listening to songs when this song hit me hard

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2004-11-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

ITS MY BDAE TODAY~!~!
well, tat's the oni bright side of my life today
somehow, today also made me realise tat none of my frends actually really understands me
yeah it's true i hide myself behind tat fake smile
laughing n cracking jokes as if i got no problems in my life
but when the 4 walls of my room surrounds me, my ugly side rears
i am a pesimistic kinda person, i rather not take the chance of getting hurt more

ppl always tells me i shuld be happy wif wat i have now, rather then not having wat i have
but i can say tat it does not matter to me wat i have now
i'm in the last phrase of my enjoyment
serving the army in a few mths time
this timing can't come at a even betta time
jus nice i can break away from my frends
they always tell me "dun worry la, when u go ns we will still contact de"
but look at now, before i even go in it's like i'm a non existent person
finding me oni when they got nth to do or need smth from me
a present from them jus had this sentence tat matches wat i feel
"even when taked for granted by me, continuing to provide for the needs and desires of the unpredictable creature i am"
some frends, borrow money, neva bother to return
some can even forget
if u r my frend u would at least have the heart to return
i dun like to go ard asking for my money
it's make me feel like some kinda of loan shark

yeah, my bdae, i had reminded them of it abt a week before
wat if i did not
will it jus slip through their minds like it did for my dad
he dun even noe it's my bdae
it's been many yrs since i last heard "happy bdae son" from him
i dun blame him, he's been bringing me up since i was born
he always give me tat kind of heck care attidute
allowing me to do watever i wan
but sometimes i jus a little hint of concern of care from him
maybe he's busy, maybe he's always wif my step mom
not like i hate my step mom, in fact i love her for the things she do for me everyday
my hse is always feels empty, my parents in their room
ppl start to take my hse like some kind of hotel
no place to go, it's off to my hse
no prob wif it but there r times where they tend to make so much noise tat ppl complain
then wat? security guards come over my place *knock knock*

i am a bad tempered person, tat personality nv change over the yrs
i dun like to think for other ppl
hu cares if u all come out today?? it's jus the same bunch of ppl i see everytime
when i lose my temper, pls let things be my way
today, my bdae, expected everyone to be happy
one person, black face spoil my farking mood
i hate tis kind of thing
wanted to go home, stopped by fadzli, giving me craps like "huiting come down here for u leh"
once again, i can't be bothered
i'm going to "sayonara" wif them anywayz
frends come n go, wif exceptions eg: fadz
wif reference to some part above, "wow, i oni saw huiting after a looooooong time"
i wondered wat if i kept quiet abt my bdae??
"wow it will take even longer"
everyone have their own frends, own lifes, own problems
sure i can't expect them to remember me
i admit i kinda selfish, always wan things to be my way
but at least i adopt the attitude of anything la

let me see.. one person oni actually remembers my bdae on the exact date..
"michelle (SP)"
i nv going to forget her
the rest is thru my msn nick or me purposely di siaoing them "where's my present"

usual outing grp = 2 couples + me
me = extra
it's not tat i dun wan to go get a stead
i dun have the confidence to go n do it
i'm afraid of failure, choosing to like the person in silence
i can't make it anywayz, i bound to spoil the progress somewhere

sick of fake smiles, tired of acting i'm happy
ns is my break time
bye n thanks for being in my life for tat short moment

2004-11-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

a quick update..

fri:
went to ck hse to actually start doing fyp.. well, say is do la.. but nv do much.. end up our web site oni do 2 pages.. tat is the interface oni.. all the coding haven't even touch yet.. tis week must show teacher liaoz dunno how haha.. wanted to borrow some games from him but he have one all i have also.. so nvm.. sis now at home liaoz so sometimes cannot use com.. so me going back to play playstation.. was thinking of saving up to buy playstation 2..

sat:
rotted at home.. short n simple..

sun:
hari raya.. well, i went to my auntie hse in the afternoon oni to find out at they not at home.. well i didn't noe cos every hari raya always go to my auntie hse one.. called my relatives oni to find out tis yr hari raya celebrations was held at my other auntie place which is at sengkang.. there i was at boon lay n they call me go sengkang?? no way man.. so i told my ah ma i will be there tml instead.. nvm if i can't get all the green paos.. i can't be bothered anywayz.. went to meet peiyu n cecilia at queenstown at abt 3.. peiyu reached early so called me to go meet her at mechmaster.. but i forgot where it is walk until dunno where lol.. after i finally found my way to mechmaster, me n peiyu went ahead to play pool while waiting for cecilia to come.. somehow i keep on losing to peiyu.. too suay liaoz i think lol.. anywayz, peiyu saw tis little kitten when she went out to buy food for us.. then she was like "SO CUTE~!~!" then say wan to bring home.. again.. but cannot.. cos mom dun let i think.. then cecilia go n bring the kitten into the pool area when the auntie dun allow.. haha.. then peiyu tried to physco me to bring the cat home.. but i also cannot.. so feed the cat awhile lorz.. while continue playing.. then the stupid cat started meowing so loudly.. scared the auntie might hear so i go n play play wif the kitten.. dunno y the kitten will diam diam when playing wif me.. then stupid peiyu say the kitten like me.. dots.. then got some point where the auntie came near our area, i took the kitten hide inside toilet sia.. haha.. well, we played pool for quite long.. abt 2 n 1/2 hrs?? brought the kitten out.. bo pian have to leave the kitten where we found it.. peiyu die die dun wan to let go.. have to drag her away.. well, after tat went to talk crap for awhile before everyone headed home..